Canal and Bowery Chapter Seven
Quinn's POV
Waking the next morning I open my eyes slowly and am greeted by Zac's face. I had almost convinced myself that last night was a dream and that Zac and I hadn't had sex. I had almost convinced myself that I wasn't confused by what all of this meant but now with the reality of the situation hitting me I know I was wrong and I am so fucking confused.
I bite my lip as I look at him as he sleeps still, so oblivious to the fact that I am watching him. I want to run away but I can't, mainly because he is blocking my way off the bed and even if he wasn't his arm has some gotten wrapped around my waist as well as his legs finding a way to get intertwined with mine and it's as if we are one just like we had became one last night.
At the thoughts of last night I want to mentally kick myself. I know I had asked him numerous times if he was sure about doing what we did, but maybe I should have asked myself that same question because now in the light of morning I am not so sure last night was what I wanted even if I had been turned on and so fucking hard.
I'm not gay though I know that much or well at least I think I do. I think I'm straight, if I was gay I'd be attracted to all men or at least more than just Zac...and well maybe I'm not even attracted to him. Last night could have been a fluke especially after seeing him having sex and it's been so long since I had sex. I just needed the comfort and so did he. We both got it too and hopefully things can go back to normal even if we did fuck.
Seeing Zac start to move I feel myself blush when he opens his eyes and takes in his surroundings as well as the way were our laying.
"S..sorry," Zac apologizes and I hear the slight catch in his word. "I guess I moved around too much in my sleep last night," he continues to speak as he somehow untangles himself from me so easily and I feel cold and really very empty at that moment. "But it was the best sleep I've had in awhile."
At Zac's words I can't help but feel guilty. How can I ruin him saying that by telling him that I'm sorry I fucked things up last night and I just want to forget it even happened?
"The best?" I ask giving him a surprised look mainly because I sort of am. He has never complained about having trouble sleeping before.
Zac nods as a blush crosses his cheeks, "It was nice to sleep beside someone again," he says as he shrugs. "I just have never liked sleeping alone I guess."
I just nod and chew my lip, "Have you ever had to sleep alone? I mean you know before Tay...your brother ditched you?" I ask unable to even finish his brother's name. A part of me is pissed that his brother just seemingly used him again last night. I may be confused how I feel for the kid but I don't think he deserves to be used like that.
"Not really," Zac answers as he scrunches up his nose. "Taylor always somehow found his way into my bed even before our relationship changed to one that wasn't just brothers," he sighs as he chews his lip now. "A..about last night..." he starts before stopping and looking away. "Are things weird between us now?"
Going silent I have to think of my answer, "I...I don't know," I finally speak deciding to be honest. "I guess it all depends on how you saw things between us."
"I saw us having sex..nothing more," Zac speaks but I don't know if I trust his words especially since it seems he can't even look at me.
Sitting up in my bed I look down at him, "I was just trying to comfort you," I tell him as I run a hand through my hair. "I'm not gay and you're my friend. I wanted to comfort you because he hurt you and I hate seeing you hurt," I nod feeling almost vulnerable after admitting that last part. I haven't wanted to see someone hurt since being with Clara.
Zac just nods his head, "Then that's what it was. Just comfort sex," he says as he sits up in the bed beside me. "And we can go on as if the comfort sex never happened," he smiles as he finally looks at me. When our eyes connect I can almost feel my heartbreak because his smile doesn't reach his eyes like it normally does.
I don't say anything or ask him about it though. Instead I watch as he moves from the bed and gets dressed before leaving the bedroom. After he is gone and the door is shut, I groan to myself and fall back on the bed, "Way to be a fucking idiot," I mutter to myself as I yawn and close my eyes again.
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Waking once more a few hours later I look at the clock to see that it's almost noon and I groan before slipping out of bed for real this time. Getting dressed in a hurry I head out of my room and into the kitchen where I come to a stop when I am met by my sister-in-law.
"I was wondering when you would wake up," Natalie speaks her voice coming out harsh. "Zac called me because he was upset and so I came. He finally drifted back off to sleep and should probably be asleep for another hour and I wanted to leave but then I decided that confronting you would be better."
"Confronting me?" I ask trying to feign innocence on what she wants to talk about.
Natalie nods as she walks closer to me, "Zac told me about you two having sex and how you just want it to be comfort sex. You used him."
I shake my head at her words, "I didn't use him," I tell her before making a face. "Anyway he seemed okay about coming to that agreement," I mutter though I know deep down he looked anything but. His smile hadn't even reached his eyes. "I'm not happy Zac is telling my sister-in-law about my sex life though," I shrug as I walk past her to go to the fridge. My last words were a tactic to change the conversation and she'll probably see right through them.
"And you believed his words?" Natalie asks as she raises an eyebrow. "You believe he meant what he said? Zac's a damaged boy and you made him worse Quinn Ethan Bell."
At Natalie using my full name I look away from her, "No but I didn't question him."
"You should have," Natalie says as she crosses her arms when I look back up. I swear the look she gives me is one of a mother scolding her child. "How could you just use someone who is your friend? Someone you took in and who slowly became part of this family."
"I told you I didn't use him," I sigh before opening the fridge finally and pulling out the cartoon of milk. "I didn't," I insist as I walk to a counter and put the milk down. "I'm just confused but I didn't use him."
Natalie sighs and I don't even have to look at her to know she is probably shaking her head. "Then what would you call it Quinn?"
Taking a cup down from a cabinet I pour myself a glass of milk, "I was comforting him. Taylor the asshole brother of his left him high and dry after an argument and I was comforting him and making him feel better because all I want for that little dipshit is for him to feel better and happy."
"And you choose sex to make that happen?" Natalie asks and I turn to see her, her arms are still crossed and she looks at me as if I have two heads or have lost my damn mind. "You don't see how that could be misleading for someone who may have feelings for you?"
"But he doesn't have feelings for me," I start as I turn to put the milk away. "Or does he?" I ask her when I see her just shaking her head and glaring at me after I have shut the fridge door. I have never felt more like a child being scolded than in this moment with my sister-in-law.
Natalie sighs as she looks away from me, "I promised him I wouldn't say anything," she starts which gives me all the answers I need. "He does maybe kind of like you. He's confused but he has had dreams about you lately and I guess the sex with you just made him even more confused."
Swallowing hard I walk over to where the cup of milk is and I take a drink. I should be drinking something much stronger because right now I don't know how to deal. I don't know anything except I wasn't expecting the fact that Zac may have feelings for me.
"I...I didn't know," I answer feeling my voice crack when I try to get my words out. "If I had known I wouldn't have slept with him," I sigh though even I doubt my words. "Okay maybe I still would have," I whisper when Natalie just glares at me. "But I....god how could I miss the fact that he may have feelings for me?" I ask before leaning against the counter and taking another drink of the milk.
Before Natalie can answer me her phone sounds and I know by the ringtone it's a text message. Watching her grab for her phone which was in the pocket of her jeans I stand there and chew my lip.
"It's Abel," Natalie finally speaks after she puts the phone away in her pocket again. "The kids are acting up so I need to head home but as for Zac just..go easy on him and god forbid if you don't have feelings for the boy don't have sex with him again," she nods before turning to leave the kitchen without answering my question on how could I have missed the fact that he may have feelings for me.
Sighing to myself I take a drink of the milk again. I hope I can find a way to make things okay between Zac and I, and I sure as hell hope I can find a way to tell him no if it comes to sex again but to be honest I am not sure if I'll be able too. Despite my protests on not being gay the sex with Zac was pretty good.
Quinn's POV
Waking the next morning I open my eyes slowly and am greeted by Zac's face. I had almost convinced myself that last night was a dream and that Zac and I hadn't had sex. I had almost convinced myself that I wasn't confused by what all of this meant but now with the reality of the situation hitting me I know I was wrong and I am so fucking confused.
I bite my lip as I look at him as he sleeps still, so oblivious to the fact that I am watching him. I want to run away but I can't, mainly because he is blocking my way off the bed and even if he wasn't his arm has some gotten wrapped around my waist as well as his legs finding a way to get intertwined with mine and it's as if we are one just like we had became one last night.
At the thoughts of last night I want to mentally kick myself. I know I had asked him numerous times if he was sure about doing what we did, but maybe I should have asked myself that same question because now in the light of morning I am not so sure last night was what I wanted even if I had been turned on and so fucking hard.
I'm not gay though I know that much or well at least I think I do. I think I'm straight, if I was gay I'd be attracted to all men or at least more than just Zac...and well maybe I'm not even attracted to him. Last night could have been a fluke especially after seeing him having sex and it's been so long since I had sex. I just needed the comfort and so did he. We both got it too and hopefully things can go back to normal even if we did fuck.
Seeing Zac start to move I feel myself blush when he opens his eyes and takes in his surroundings as well as the way were our laying.
"S..sorry," Zac apologizes and I hear the slight catch in his word. "I guess I moved around too much in my sleep last night," he continues to speak as he somehow untangles himself from me so easily and I feel cold and really very empty at that moment. "But it was the best sleep I've had in awhile."
At Zac's words I can't help but feel guilty. How can I ruin him saying that by telling him that I'm sorry I fucked things up last night and I just want to forget it even happened?
"The best?" I ask giving him a surprised look mainly because I sort of am. He has never complained about having trouble sleeping before.
Zac nods as a blush crosses his cheeks, "It was nice to sleep beside someone again," he says as he shrugs. "I just have never liked sleeping alone I guess."
I just nod and chew my lip, "Have you ever had to sleep alone? I mean you know before Tay...your brother ditched you?" I ask unable to even finish his brother's name. A part of me is pissed that his brother just seemingly used him again last night. I may be confused how I feel for the kid but I don't think he deserves to be used like that.
"Not really," Zac answers as he scrunches up his nose. "Taylor always somehow found his way into my bed even before our relationship changed to one that wasn't just brothers," he sighs as he chews his lip now. "A..about last night..." he starts before stopping and looking away. "Are things weird between us now?"
Going silent I have to think of my answer, "I...I don't know," I finally speak deciding to be honest. "I guess it all depends on how you saw things between us."
"I saw us having sex..nothing more," Zac speaks but I don't know if I trust his words especially since it seems he can't even look at me.
Sitting up in my bed I look down at him, "I was just trying to comfort you," I tell him as I run a hand through my hair. "I'm not gay and you're my friend. I wanted to comfort you because he hurt you and I hate seeing you hurt," I nod feeling almost vulnerable after admitting that last part. I haven't wanted to see someone hurt since being with Clara.
Zac just nods his head, "Then that's what it was. Just comfort sex," he says as he sits up in the bed beside me. "And we can go on as if the comfort sex never happened," he smiles as he finally looks at me. When our eyes connect I can almost feel my heartbreak because his smile doesn't reach his eyes like it normally does.
I don't say anything or ask him about it though. Instead I watch as he moves from the bed and gets dressed before leaving the bedroom. After he is gone and the door is shut, I groan to myself and fall back on the bed, "Way to be a fucking idiot," I mutter to myself as I yawn and close my eyes again.
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Waking once more a few hours later I look at the clock to see that it's almost noon and I groan before slipping out of bed for real this time. Getting dressed in a hurry I head out of my room and into the kitchen where I come to a stop when I am met by my sister-in-law.
"I was wondering when you would wake up," Natalie speaks her voice coming out harsh. "Zac called me because he was upset and so I came. He finally drifted back off to sleep and should probably be asleep for another hour and I wanted to leave but then I decided that confronting you would be better."
"Confronting me?" I ask trying to feign innocence on what she wants to talk about.
Natalie nods as she walks closer to me, "Zac told me about you two having sex and how you just want it to be comfort sex. You used him."
I shake my head at her words, "I didn't use him," I tell her before making a face. "Anyway he seemed okay about coming to that agreement," I mutter though I know deep down he looked anything but. His smile hadn't even reached his eyes. "I'm not happy Zac is telling my sister-in-law about my sex life though," I shrug as I walk past her to go to the fridge. My last words were a tactic to change the conversation and she'll probably see right through them.
"And you believed his words?" Natalie asks as she raises an eyebrow. "You believe he meant what he said? Zac's a damaged boy and you made him worse Quinn Ethan Bell."
At Natalie using my full name I look away from her, "No but I didn't question him."
"You should have," Natalie says as she crosses her arms when I look back up. I swear the look she gives me is one of a mother scolding her child. "How could you just use someone who is your friend? Someone you took in and who slowly became part of this family."
"I told you I didn't use him," I sigh before opening the fridge finally and pulling out the cartoon of milk. "I didn't," I insist as I walk to a counter and put the milk down. "I'm just confused but I didn't use him."
Natalie sighs and I don't even have to look at her to know she is probably shaking her head. "Then what would you call it Quinn?"
Taking a cup down from a cabinet I pour myself a glass of milk, "I was comforting him. Taylor the asshole brother of his left him high and dry after an argument and I was comforting him and making him feel better because all I want for that little dipshit is for him to feel better and happy."
"And you choose sex to make that happen?" Natalie asks and I turn to see her, her arms are still crossed and she looks at me as if I have two heads or have lost my damn mind. "You don't see how that could be misleading for someone who may have feelings for you?"
"But he doesn't have feelings for me," I start as I turn to put the milk away. "Or does he?" I ask her when I see her just shaking her head and glaring at me after I have shut the fridge door. I have never felt more like a child being scolded than in this moment with my sister-in-law.
Natalie sighs as she looks away from me, "I promised him I wouldn't say anything," she starts which gives me all the answers I need. "He does maybe kind of like you. He's confused but he has had dreams about you lately and I guess the sex with you just made him even more confused."
Swallowing hard I walk over to where the cup of milk is and I take a drink. I should be drinking something much stronger because right now I don't know how to deal. I don't know anything except I wasn't expecting the fact that Zac may have feelings for me.
"I...I didn't know," I answer feeling my voice crack when I try to get my words out. "If I had known I wouldn't have slept with him," I sigh though even I doubt my words. "Okay maybe I still would have," I whisper when Natalie just glares at me. "But I....god how could I miss the fact that he may have feelings for me?" I ask before leaning against the counter and taking another drink of the milk.
Before Natalie can answer me her phone sounds and I know by the ringtone it's a text message. Watching her grab for her phone which was in the pocket of her jeans I stand there and chew my lip.
"It's Abel," Natalie finally speaks after she puts the phone away in her pocket again. "The kids are acting up so I need to head home but as for Zac just..go easy on him and god forbid if you don't have feelings for the boy don't have sex with him again," she nods before turning to leave the kitchen without answering my question on how could I have missed the fact that he may have feelings for me.
Sighing to myself I take a drink of the milk again. I hope I can find a way to make things okay between Zac and I, and I sure as hell hope I can find a way to tell him no if it comes to sex again but to be honest I am not sure if I'll be able too. Despite my protests on not being gay the sex with Zac was pretty good.
