All Fucked Up On Love
Zac sighed as he looked at Brenda who had just destroyed their bedroom. She had found him in bed with another woman hours ago and while usually that would be okay well this time it was different. It was different because with this woman he hadn't met her at none of the clubs he and Brenda went too. She wasn't someone that Zac was just going to sleep with once nor was she someone Brenda had wanted to see him having sex with.
The woman had been someone he had met out at that same restaurant where he had saw Avery at. They had literally bumped into each other and when he looked at her he had almost thought he was seeing a ghost in ways. She had resembled the woman he had left behind in Kentucky and she had even had the same innocent look in her eyes. The look that had made Zac drawn to Avery the first time he saw her in his class.
"Are you calm now?" Zac asked Brenda as he slowly walked closer towards her. "I'm sure Blake would like to leave the house and the room now and well she really can't do that with you throwing things and blocking her way out," he said keeping his caution with Brenda
Brenda glared at the woman who was in her bed clutching a sheet around herself, "I'm not calm but that slut can leave," she snapped before watching the woman climb out of bed and dress quickly. It was after she had dressed that she left the room and house.
After she was gone Brenda just glared at Zac, "How long have you been fucking with that little mousy looking girl?" she asked as she crossed her arms.
"A few months," Zac admitted as he looked down not able to meet Brenda's gaze. He was ashamed that he had been caught even if he wasn't so ashamed that he had cheated.
"How long exactly is a few months?" Brenda asked as she kept her arms crossed, her glare getting worse.
Biting his lip Zac counted back in his head, "Five months," he answered as his voice went soft. "I was sleeping with Blake for five months."
At his answer Brenda just closed her eyes as she shook her head, "I just don't understand why you would do this," she said once she had opened her eyes. "I mean we have sex regularly and you even still get to have your fun with other women," she said as she uncrossed her arms. "So I know it's not lack of sex that made you cheat on me."
"It wasn't lack of sex," Zac confirmed as he looked at her and made a face before sitting down on the bed. "I cheated because Blake reminded me of Avery," he confessed knowing he hadn't even mentioned Avery since getting back with Brenda almost two years ago. Brenda hadn't liked him talking about her especially when she had seen pictures of her on his phone and on his instagram. Pictures he had refused to delete.
Hearing Avery's name Brenda ran a hand down her cheeks not know what to say. She wasn't naive, she knew he had said he loved Avery but she had always hoped his love for her was stronger. Hell she had gotten him to leave Avery when he had said he wouldn't. She had hoped she could get him to stop loving her too.
"What's so special about Avery?" Brenda asked harshly as she locked eyes with him. "I mean you left her without a god damn second thought and now you're cheating on me because someone looks like her?"
At Brenda's words Zac felt guilt but he wasn't sure it was because he had cheated on Brenda. His guilt was because she had reminded him of how he left things with her. He knew he had been rude and he probably could have done things better but at the time he had just missed Brenda and she had that ability to make him believe if he came back that he'd be as happy as he was before but he hadn't been.
Zac had known something was missing two months in when he started feeling like there was a void in his life. A void that no amount of sex with a stranger or Brenda could fix. Even sex with Blake hadn't fixed it all but it had came close because each time he was with her he didn't have to close his eyes. He could look at her when he was inside of her and actually fool himself into believing he was seeing Avery's face though without the look she had given him in their chance meeting a few years ago. That look he wanted to forget.
"I love her," Zac stated simply as he shrugged his shoulders. "I love her and I miss her and I don't think you or any amount of strangers can fix that," he said telling Brenda things he should have a long time ago.
Listening to Zac's words Brenda looked down at the engagement ring on her finger, "If you think that way then why propose?" she asked as she held her hand up to show him the ring he had given her two months prior.
Zac laughed bitterly, "Another mistake in a long line I have made," he said knowing the mistakes had started the day he left Avery. That had been his first mistake.
Brenda frowned at his answer but she just slid her engagement ring off and handed it to him, "Take it. Take it and get your shit together and leave my house," she said her anger returning now. "I'm giving you an hour and if you aren't gone then I go outside and I will ruin that precious damn truck of yours."
Hearing her Zac just nodded and stood from the bed without saying another word. Getting dressed he gave Brenda one last look once he was done and then he proceeded to pack his stuff before carrying it out to his truck and putting it in the backseat. Once he had everything he got in and started it, driving off without even saying anything else to Brenda mainly because her threat on giving him an hour or she'd ruin his truck.
He did need this truck to get him back to Kentucky. It was the only place he knew to go back too. It was the only place where his heart wanted him to go. He knew he had messed up terribly but maybe just maybe he could do something right if he went back. He could try to fix stuff with Avery if she'd let him. Hell he should have tried harder that day in October when he had seen her.
Zac also knew she was with Taylor now but he'd fight for her. He'd fight for the woman he still loved and wanted to be with. The woman he needed to make amends with.
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Jolene who had arrived back from Stella's birthday party stopped when she reached her porch, "Zac?" she asked confused at the sight of her son sitting on her porch bundled up in a huge coat and scarf. "I..I wasn't expecting you here," she said knowing she also hadn't seen his truck though he usually parked that in the garage.
"Brenda and I broke up," Zac revealed as he gave his mom a sheepish smile. "This time it was my fault," he told her sadly. "I drove to the only place I knew to come," he said as he stood up.
Rolling her eyes Jolene just shook her head, "And you waited on the porch until I got back?"
"I had no choice," Zac answered as he smirked. "You may have left the garage open but the door there was locked and so was the front door and I don't have a key anymore," he said knowing he had lost it somewhere in his move to California again.
Jolene sighed as she looked at Zac a bit longer. She really wanted to be mad at him because not only had he left Avery but he had left her too. He hadn't even came to see her in three years but the more she looked at him she just saw the boy she had raised since birth. She saw the baby she had loved from the moment he was put in her arms.
"Come on," she said as she walked to the door and unlocked it. "Let's get you inside before you get sick. Wouldn't want my son to get hypothermia," she teased as she opened the door and stepped inside.
Smiling at his mom's words Zac watched her unlock the door and he stepped in behind her, "So where were you for so long?" he asked as he raised an eyebrow. "I've been waiting for an hour."
Jolene paused briefly as she tried to think of an answer to give Zac, "Oh I had a birthday party to attend," she said finally giving him part of the truth.
Zac kept his eyebrow raised as he looked at his mom, "Your friends still throw parties?" he asked as he picked at her. "I mean I figured you guys would just cry in your room the older you get, not go out and celebrate," he laughed as he watched her turn to glare at him.
"You know you are thirty-one Zachary," Jolene stated using his full name. "You aren't getting any younger either," she winked as she took off her coat and put it on the coat rack. "But the part wasn't for one of my friends. It was a friends daughter. She turned two."
"Oh..." Zac said as he just shook his head not knowing his mom even had any friends old enough to have a two year old but then again she probably did work with women in their twenties and thirties so maybe she did have friends old enough to have kids who were still young.
"Yeah oh," Jolene muttered as she walked away from him and headed into the kitchen. "You know you can take your coat off and then come in here and I'll fix you some soup," she called too him as she walked away.
Watching his mom walk away Zac just smiled glad that he had came back home. He already felt part way complete and the other thing to make him feel whole would be to get Avery back and to tell her things he should have when he saw her in California. He shouldn't have just let her walk away and at least here in Kentucky she couldn't just walk away. This small town had no crowded streets she could get lost in.
Zac sighed as he looked at Brenda who had just destroyed their bedroom. She had found him in bed with another woman hours ago and while usually that would be okay well this time it was different. It was different because with this woman he hadn't met her at none of the clubs he and Brenda went too. She wasn't someone that Zac was just going to sleep with once nor was she someone Brenda had wanted to see him having sex with.
The woman had been someone he had met out at that same restaurant where he had saw Avery at. They had literally bumped into each other and when he looked at her he had almost thought he was seeing a ghost in ways. She had resembled the woman he had left behind in Kentucky and she had even had the same innocent look in her eyes. The look that had made Zac drawn to Avery the first time he saw her in his class.
"Are you calm now?" Zac asked Brenda as he slowly walked closer towards her. "I'm sure Blake would like to leave the house and the room now and well she really can't do that with you throwing things and blocking her way out," he said keeping his caution with Brenda
Brenda glared at the woman who was in her bed clutching a sheet around herself, "I'm not calm but that slut can leave," she snapped before watching the woman climb out of bed and dress quickly. It was after she had dressed that she left the room and house.
After she was gone Brenda just glared at Zac, "How long have you been fucking with that little mousy looking girl?" she asked as she crossed her arms.
"A few months," Zac admitted as he looked down not able to meet Brenda's gaze. He was ashamed that he had been caught even if he wasn't so ashamed that he had cheated.
"How long exactly is a few months?" Brenda asked as she kept her arms crossed, her glare getting worse.
Biting his lip Zac counted back in his head, "Five months," he answered as his voice went soft. "I was sleeping with Blake for five months."
At his answer Brenda just closed her eyes as she shook her head, "I just don't understand why you would do this," she said once she had opened her eyes. "I mean we have sex regularly and you even still get to have your fun with other women," she said as she uncrossed her arms. "So I know it's not lack of sex that made you cheat on me."
"It wasn't lack of sex," Zac confirmed as he looked at her and made a face before sitting down on the bed. "I cheated because Blake reminded me of Avery," he confessed knowing he hadn't even mentioned Avery since getting back with Brenda almost two years ago. Brenda hadn't liked him talking about her especially when she had seen pictures of her on his phone and on his instagram. Pictures he had refused to delete.
Hearing Avery's name Brenda ran a hand down her cheeks not know what to say. She wasn't naive, she knew he had said he loved Avery but she had always hoped his love for her was stronger. Hell she had gotten him to leave Avery when he had said he wouldn't. She had hoped she could get him to stop loving her too.
"What's so special about Avery?" Brenda asked harshly as she locked eyes with him. "I mean you left her without a god damn second thought and now you're cheating on me because someone looks like her?"
At Brenda's words Zac felt guilt but he wasn't sure it was because he had cheated on Brenda. His guilt was because she had reminded him of how he left things with her. He knew he had been rude and he probably could have done things better but at the time he had just missed Brenda and she had that ability to make him believe if he came back that he'd be as happy as he was before but he hadn't been.
Zac had known something was missing two months in when he started feeling like there was a void in his life. A void that no amount of sex with a stranger or Brenda could fix. Even sex with Blake hadn't fixed it all but it had came close because each time he was with her he didn't have to close his eyes. He could look at her when he was inside of her and actually fool himself into believing he was seeing Avery's face though without the look she had given him in their chance meeting a few years ago. That look he wanted to forget.
"I love her," Zac stated simply as he shrugged his shoulders. "I love her and I miss her and I don't think you or any amount of strangers can fix that," he said telling Brenda things he should have a long time ago.
Listening to Zac's words Brenda looked down at the engagement ring on her finger, "If you think that way then why propose?" she asked as she held her hand up to show him the ring he had given her two months prior.
Zac laughed bitterly, "Another mistake in a long line I have made," he said knowing the mistakes had started the day he left Avery. That had been his first mistake.
Brenda frowned at his answer but she just slid her engagement ring off and handed it to him, "Take it. Take it and get your shit together and leave my house," she said her anger returning now. "I'm giving you an hour and if you aren't gone then I go outside and I will ruin that precious damn truck of yours."
Hearing her Zac just nodded and stood from the bed without saying another word. Getting dressed he gave Brenda one last look once he was done and then he proceeded to pack his stuff before carrying it out to his truck and putting it in the backseat. Once he had everything he got in and started it, driving off without even saying anything else to Brenda mainly because her threat on giving him an hour or she'd ruin his truck.
He did need this truck to get him back to Kentucky. It was the only place he knew to go back too. It was the only place where his heart wanted him to go. He knew he had messed up terribly but maybe just maybe he could do something right if he went back. He could try to fix stuff with Avery if she'd let him. Hell he should have tried harder that day in October when he had seen her.
Zac also knew she was with Taylor now but he'd fight for her. He'd fight for the woman he still loved and wanted to be with. The woman he needed to make amends with.
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Jolene who had arrived back from Stella's birthday party stopped when she reached her porch, "Zac?" she asked confused at the sight of her son sitting on her porch bundled up in a huge coat and scarf. "I..I wasn't expecting you here," she said knowing she also hadn't seen his truck though he usually parked that in the garage.
"Brenda and I broke up," Zac revealed as he gave his mom a sheepish smile. "This time it was my fault," he told her sadly. "I drove to the only place I knew to come," he said as he stood up.
Rolling her eyes Jolene just shook her head, "And you waited on the porch until I got back?"
"I had no choice," Zac answered as he smirked. "You may have left the garage open but the door there was locked and so was the front door and I don't have a key anymore," he said knowing he had lost it somewhere in his move to California again.
Jolene sighed as she looked at Zac a bit longer. She really wanted to be mad at him because not only had he left Avery but he had left her too. He hadn't even came to see her in three years but the more she looked at him she just saw the boy she had raised since birth. She saw the baby she had loved from the moment he was put in her arms.
"Come on," she said as she walked to the door and unlocked it. "Let's get you inside before you get sick. Wouldn't want my son to get hypothermia," she teased as she opened the door and stepped inside.
Smiling at his mom's words Zac watched her unlock the door and he stepped in behind her, "So where were you for so long?" he asked as he raised an eyebrow. "I've been waiting for an hour."
Jolene paused briefly as she tried to think of an answer to give Zac, "Oh I had a birthday party to attend," she said finally giving him part of the truth.
Zac kept his eyebrow raised as he looked at his mom, "Your friends still throw parties?" he asked as he picked at her. "I mean I figured you guys would just cry in your room the older you get, not go out and celebrate," he laughed as he watched her turn to glare at him.
"You know you are thirty-one Zachary," Jolene stated using his full name. "You aren't getting any younger either," she winked as she took off her coat and put it on the coat rack. "But the part wasn't for one of my friends. It was a friends daughter. She turned two."
"Oh..." Zac said as he just shook his head not knowing his mom even had any friends old enough to have a two year old but then again she probably did work with women in their twenties and thirties so maybe she did have friends old enough to have kids who were still young.
"Yeah oh," Jolene muttered as she walked away from him and headed into the kitchen. "You know you can take your coat off and then come in here and I'll fix you some soup," she called too him as she walked away.
Watching his mom walk away Zac just smiled glad that he had came back home. He already felt part way complete and the other thing to make him feel whole would be to get Avery back and to tell her things he should have when he saw her in California. He shouldn't have just let her walk away and at least here in Kentucky she couldn't just walk away. This small town had no crowded streets she could get lost in.
