Black Birds Soaring In The Sky
Avery closed her eyes as she sat in the hospital waiting room with Taylor. His parents were on the other side of the room and they were all here waiting on Nikki to give birth to her and Isaac's second child. A little boy that they were supposedly naming Gabriel or Gavin or something with a G. At the moment Avery couldn't really remember.
"You want a coffee?" Avery asked Taylor as she opened her eyes to look at him. "If so I can go get you one," she said knowing she also wanted an excuse to slip out and call Jolene. Jolene had volunteered to watch Stella so that Avery and Taylor could be here and this was the longest that Stella who would be two next month had been away from both her parents.
Taylor turned to look at Avery and he nodded, "I can go with you though," he said as he looked at her. He really didn't want to be left in her alone with his parents.
Avery shook her head as she looked at him smiling, "I can go by myself," she told him. "Anyway I think your mom wants to talk to you. She's been eying you for awhile."
Shaking his head Taylor just fake glared at Avery before leaning in to peck her lips, "I love you," he whispered after he pulled away. "But if you mess up my coffee I may reconsider that."
Laughing slightly Avery stood up, "I've been with you for almost a decade Taylor. I think I know how you take your coffee," she winked before walking off and heading out of the waiting room.
Before going to the cafeteria though Avery went outside and called Jolene. Jolene had assured her that Stella was doing well and being a perfect angel and that Avery had nothing to worry about. Avery though couldn't help but worry, though after Jolene's insistence that things were fine she ended the call and finally headed inside to get Taylor a coffee as well as getting one for herself.
After she had the coffee's she headed back towards the waiting room but stopped when she didn't see Taylor.
"Tay went for a walk," Diana spoke when she saw Avery come back. "He said he needed to stretch his legs and that he just needed some time," she frowned knowing today had to be hard for both Taylor and Avery but of course Isaac could never go through a big event without his baby brother there.
Nodding when she heard Taylor needed time Avery turned and walked away. She had a hunch on where she would find Taylor and she followed that hunch all the way to the chapel where she found her husband sitting on a bench. Slowly she walked to where he was and sat down.
"Figured I'd find you here when your mom said you needed some time," she spoke when he looked at her. Handing him his coffee she swallowed hard before taking a drink of her own coffee, "I thought about coming here myself for the past hour," she admitted as she smiled sadly.
Taylor listened to Avery and he chewed on his lip, "I'm happy for Ike and Nikki," he said knowing he was happy that they were having a new addition to their family after four years. "But I keep thinking we should be the ones having our baby today," he frowned knowing that the baby Avery had been pregnant with, the baby she had lost was to have been due today as well.
"We would have been," Avery nodded as she looked down. "We would have been had I not lost him at twenty weeks," she said remembering the day she had lost their third son like it was yesterday. She had went in for a routine appointment for an ultrasound and she had found out the baby had no heartbeat. The doctors had been able to tell from his growth between her last appointment and that one, that he had probably died two days prior to her ultrasound.
It was after her ultrasound that she had asked to have a few hours to decide what to do. A few hours they had given her. She had called Taylor first thing and then her parents. By the end of the day she had agreed to let them induce her labor and four short hours after they had, her and Taylor's son had been born. They had held him in their hands and treated him like they would have their other babies but unlike their other babies he had been tiny and he had no heartbeat and he never would get to come home.
Instead three days after her labor they had buried him at the local cemetery. It was a day that had been hard on Avery and she knew it also had to have been hard on Taylor too. They had both lost Jackson and they were now both still grieving that loss. A loss they were being reminded of now that Nikki had went into labor on the day she should have given birth to Jackson.
Taylor finished his coffee in silence as Avery went silent after she spoke, "I miss him," he said once he did speak. "I miss him so much and I just..I know your dad is a preacher and he thinks everything happens for a reason but I still can't find a reason for why an innocent baby had to be lost."
"I know," Avery said as she felt a lump forming her throat as she finished off her coffee, "I know because I can't find a reason either. I can't find a reason why our baby died and all I want sometimes is answers or to know why and sometimes I just blame God in general. I blame him and I'm not even sure I really believe in him anymore anyway," she sighed as she fought back tears.
"But I do know that losing Jackson it brought me closer to you again," she said as her voice cracked. Losing their baby had brought her closer to Taylor and it had helped her see the man she had fallen in love with. She had almost forgot about Zac all together. It wasn't like Zac had been here. He hadn't been the one getting her through her loss, telling her things would be okay, letting her know he was there.
No that had been Taylor and he too had been grieving yet he still thought about her more in his own grief than he had thought about himself. It was then that she knew Taylor had always put her first in everything even in times when she hadn't done the same for him.
Taylor smiled slightly before reaching over and pulling Avery closer to him, "I know it brought you closer to me but I still wish it didn't have to happen," he said as he kissed her forehead. It was after he kissed her forehead that he finally broke down crying. He had been trying not too all day. He had been telling himself this was a happy occassion and that he didn't want to ruin Isaac and Nikki's happy day but he couldn't help it now that he sat here alone in the chapel with Avery.
Hearing Taylor cry Avery sighed as she rested her head on Taylor's shoulder and she too eventually broke down. She was sure if anyone came in they would look like a huge train wrecked mess but she didn't care. She had needed to cry. She had needed to let out her sadness and some of her anger that Isaac and Nikki were having their perfect and healthy son on the day she should have been giving birth to hers.
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Later that night Avery smiled as she laid in bed beside Taylor. Nikki had finally given birth around seven pm to a baby boy who had been named Gabriel and she and Taylor had gotten to come home not long after. Though they didn't bring their kids home. They had dropped Jonah and Charlie off with her parents and left Stella at Jolene's while they had came home.
They had ordered food from one of the Chinese food places in town and after they had ate it they had eventually done the only thing they knew to do with the emotions they were still feeling. They had made love and comforted each other in the rawest way they could and it had helped.
"You know I can feel you staring at me," Taylor spoke as he opened his eyes and looked at her. "Did my performance tonight suck?" he asked trying to sound offended.
Avery laughed and shook her head, "No your performance tonight didn't suck," she spoke as she kissed his chest softly liking it when she heard him moan out after that. "In fact I'd give your performance five stars and two thumbs up," she smirked as they locked eyes and she let her her hand lightly brush across his cock which again made him moan. "I was just thinking," she said as she sighed. "I think I want to get a tattoo to remember Jackson by."
"Oh?" Taylor asked as he raised an eyebrow. "What kind of tattoo?"
Avery thought for a moment, "A blackbird," she said as she nodded. "I mean that one song by the Beatles we played at his funeral. The one called Blackbird and then their is a song by Pink too that mentions a blackbird that I have been listening to a lot since we lost Jackson."
Smiling as he listened to her Taylor pulled her a bit closer, "I think I may get one too," he told her knowing he could see that as a nice way to remember their son.
Hearing what Taylor said Avery smiled before leaning into kiss him. A kiss that eventually lead to another round of them making love.
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A week later Avery chewed on her lip as she stood in front of her mirror, her shirt lifted slight to reveal the blackbird tattoo she had gotten on her side almost under her breast. It was somewhere she could easily cover it unless she was wearing a bathing suit which luckily wouldn't be for a few more months.
Hearing footsteps she blushed when she saw Taylor come in the room, "You really like it?" she asked as she pushed her shirt down and turned to look at him skeptically. "I mean I know you said you did but I guess I just wanna make sure."
"I really like it," Taylor told her as he walked over to her. "I mean I got one of my own too," he said showing her his wrist where he had gotten a blackbird as well. He had wanted to get his somewhere he could see it more easily than Avery's. "I kind of find yours sexy just because I'm the only one besides you who will see it half the time," he told her as he slipped his arms around her waist.
"Oh yeah?" Avery smirked as she slipped her arms around his neck. "Well maybe I should get another tattoo in a secret location," she suggested as she winked at him. "One that only you and I will ever see."
Taylor laughed before letting a hand fall to her ass which he squeezed playfully, "I actually prefer your ass the way it is," he told her before shaking his head no.
Making a face when he squeezed her ass Avery sighed, "You are such a party pooper," she teased him before pecking his lips and pulling away. "So how bad was the argument between Jonah and Charlie?"
"No limbs were lost," Taylor shrugged as he sat on the bed and stripped down to his boxers. "Or teeth either this time," he added in knowing that the last argument had resulted in Jonah hitting Charlie and causing one of his loose teeth to come out. "I did threaten to ground them though if they didn't go to bed."
"And to think I want another baby," Avery said as she walked to her side of the bed and climbed in. "I must be crazy right?" she asked teasingly.
Taylor raised an eyebrow as he looked at her, "You really want another baby?" he asked skeptically. He knew she had talked about applying for a job at the local elementary school next fall since that would be just a few months after her night classes to become a teacher ended.
"I really want another baby," Avery confirmed as she reached over and pulled him down on the bed, his head falling in her lap. "Now can we get to practicing?" she asked playfully before seeing a smirk on Taylor's lips as well as a certain look in his eyes. A look that told her she was going to get fucked tonight.
Avery closed her eyes as she sat in the hospital waiting room with Taylor. His parents were on the other side of the room and they were all here waiting on Nikki to give birth to her and Isaac's second child. A little boy that they were supposedly naming Gabriel or Gavin or something with a G. At the moment Avery couldn't really remember.
"You want a coffee?" Avery asked Taylor as she opened her eyes to look at him. "If so I can go get you one," she said knowing she also wanted an excuse to slip out and call Jolene. Jolene had volunteered to watch Stella so that Avery and Taylor could be here and this was the longest that Stella who would be two next month had been away from both her parents.
Taylor turned to look at Avery and he nodded, "I can go with you though," he said as he looked at her. He really didn't want to be left in her alone with his parents.
Avery shook her head as she looked at him smiling, "I can go by myself," she told him. "Anyway I think your mom wants to talk to you. She's been eying you for awhile."
Shaking his head Taylor just fake glared at Avery before leaning in to peck her lips, "I love you," he whispered after he pulled away. "But if you mess up my coffee I may reconsider that."
Laughing slightly Avery stood up, "I've been with you for almost a decade Taylor. I think I know how you take your coffee," she winked before walking off and heading out of the waiting room.
Before going to the cafeteria though Avery went outside and called Jolene. Jolene had assured her that Stella was doing well and being a perfect angel and that Avery had nothing to worry about. Avery though couldn't help but worry, though after Jolene's insistence that things were fine she ended the call and finally headed inside to get Taylor a coffee as well as getting one for herself.
After she had the coffee's she headed back towards the waiting room but stopped when she didn't see Taylor.
"Tay went for a walk," Diana spoke when she saw Avery come back. "He said he needed to stretch his legs and that he just needed some time," she frowned knowing today had to be hard for both Taylor and Avery but of course Isaac could never go through a big event without his baby brother there.
Nodding when she heard Taylor needed time Avery turned and walked away. She had a hunch on where she would find Taylor and she followed that hunch all the way to the chapel where she found her husband sitting on a bench. Slowly she walked to where he was and sat down.
"Figured I'd find you here when your mom said you needed some time," she spoke when he looked at her. Handing him his coffee she swallowed hard before taking a drink of her own coffee, "I thought about coming here myself for the past hour," she admitted as she smiled sadly.
Taylor listened to Avery and he chewed on his lip, "I'm happy for Ike and Nikki," he said knowing he was happy that they were having a new addition to their family after four years. "But I keep thinking we should be the ones having our baby today," he frowned knowing that the baby Avery had been pregnant with, the baby she had lost was to have been due today as well.
"We would have been," Avery nodded as she looked down. "We would have been had I not lost him at twenty weeks," she said remembering the day she had lost their third son like it was yesterday. She had went in for a routine appointment for an ultrasound and she had found out the baby had no heartbeat. The doctors had been able to tell from his growth between her last appointment and that one, that he had probably died two days prior to her ultrasound.
It was after her ultrasound that she had asked to have a few hours to decide what to do. A few hours they had given her. She had called Taylor first thing and then her parents. By the end of the day she had agreed to let them induce her labor and four short hours after they had, her and Taylor's son had been born. They had held him in their hands and treated him like they would have their other babies but unlike their other babies he had been tiny and he had no heartbeat and he never would get to come home.
Instead three days after her labor they had buried him at the local cemetery. It was a day that had been hard on Avery and she knew it also had to have been hard on Taylor too. They had both lost Jackson and they were now both still grieving that loss. A loss they were being reminded of now that Nikki had went into labor on the day she should have given birth to Jackson.
Taylor finished his coffee in silence as Avery went silent after she spoke, "I miss him," he said once he did speak. "I miss him so much and I just..I know your dad is a preacher and he thinks everything happens for a reason but I still can't find a reason for why an innocent baby had to be lost."
"I know," Avery said as she felt a lump forming her throat as she finished off her coffee, "I know because I can't find a reason either. I can't find a reason why our baby died and all I want sometimes is answers or to know why and sometimes I just blame God in general. I blame him and I'm not even sure I really believe in him anymore anyway," she sighed as she fought back tears.
"But I do know that losing Jackson it brought me closer to you again," she said as her voice cracked. Losing their baby had brought her closer to Taylor and it had helped her see the man she had fallen in love with. She had almost forgot about Zac all together. It wasn't like Zac had been here. He hadn't been the one getting her through her loss, telling her things would be okay, letting her know he was there.
No that had been Taylor and he too had been grieving yet he still thought about her more in his own grief than he had thought about himself. It was then that she knew Taylor had always put her first in everything even in times when she hadn't done the same for him.
Taylor smiled slightly before reaching over and pulling Avery closer to him, "I know it brought you closer to me but I still wish it didn't have to happen," he said as he kissed her forehead. It was after he kissed her forehead that he finally broke down crying. He had been trying not too all day. He had been telling himself this was a happy occassion and that he didn't want to ruin Isaac and Nikki's happy day but he couldn't help it now that he sat here alone in the chapel with Avery.
Hearing Taylor cry Avery sighed as she rested her head on Taylor's shoulder and she too eventually broke down. She was sure if anyone came in they would look like a huge train wrecked mess but she didn't care. She had needed to cry. She had needed to let out her sadness and some of her anger that Isaac and Nikki were having their perfect and healthy son on the day she should have been giving birth to hers.
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Later that night Avery smiled as she laid in bed beside Taylor. Nikki had finally given birth around seven pm to a baby boy who had been named Gabriel and she and Taylor had gotten to come home not long after. Though they didn't bring their kids home. They had dropped Jonah and Charlie off with her parents and left Stella at Jolene's while they had came home.
They had ordered food from one of the Chinese food places in town and after they had ate it they had eventually done the only thing they knew to do with the emotions they were still feeling. They had made love and comforted each other in the rawest way they could and it had helped.
"You know I can feel you staring at me," Taylor spoke as he opened his eyes and looked at her. "Did my performance tonight suck?" he asked trying to sound offended.
Avery laughed and shook her head, "No your performance tonight didn't suck," she spoke as she kissed his chest softly liking it when she heard him moan out after that. "In fact I'd give your performance five stars and two thumbs up," she smirked as they locked eyes and she let her her hand lightly brush across his cock which again made him moan. "I was just thinking," she said as she sighed. "I think I want to get a tattoo to remember Jackson by."
"Oh?" Taylor asked as he raised an eyebrow. "What kind of tattoo?"
Avery thought for a moment, "A blackbird," she said as she nodded. "I mean that one song by the Beatles we played at his funeral. The one called Blackbird and then their is a song by Pink too that mentions a blackbird that I have been listening to a lot since we lost Jackson."
Smiling as he listened to her Taylor pulled her a bit closer, "I think I may get one too," he told her knowing he could see that as a nice way to remember their son.
Hearing what Taylor said Avery smiled before leaning into kiss him. A kiss that eventually lead to another round of them making love.
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A week later Avery chewed on her lip as she stood in front of her mirror, her shirt lifted slight to reveal the blackbird tattoo she had gotten on her side almost under her breast. It was somewhere she could easily cover it unless she was wearing a bathing suit which luckily wouldn't be for a few more months.
Hearing footsteps she blushed when she saw Taylor come in the room, "You really like it?" she asked as she pushed her shirt down and turned to look at him skeptically. "I mean I know you said you did but I guess I just wanna make sure."
"I really like it," Taylor told her as he walked over to her. "I mean I got one of my own too," he said showing her his wrist where he had gotten a blackbird as well. He had wanted to get his somewhere he could see it more easily than Avery's. "I kind of find yours sexy just because I'm the only one besides you who will see it half the time," he told her as he slipped his arms around her waist.
"Oh yeah?" Avery smirked as she slipped her arms around his neck. "Well maybe I should get another tattoo in a secret location," she suggested as she winked at him. "One that only you and I will ever see."
Taylor laughed before letting a hand fall to her ass which he squeezed playfully, "I actually prefer your ass the way it is," he told her before shaking his head no.
Making a face when he squeezed her ass Avery sighed, "You are such a party pooper," she teased him before pecking his lips and pulling away. "So how bad was the argument between Jonah and Charlie?"
"No limbs were lost," Taylor shrugged as he sat on the bed and stripped down to his boxers. "Or teeth either this time," he added in knowing that the last argument had resulted in Jonah hitting Charlie and causing one of his loose teeth to come out. "I did threaten to ground them though if they didn't go to bed."
"And to think I want another baby," Avery said as she walked to her side of the bed and climbed in. "I must be crazy right?" she asked teasingly.
Taylor raised an eyebrow as he looked at her, "You really want another baby?" he asked skeptically. He knew she had talked about applying for a job at the local elementary school next fall since that would be just a few months after her night classes to become a teacher ended.
"I really want another baby," Avery confirmed as she reached over and pulled him down on the bed, his head falling in her lap. "Now can we get to practicing?" she asked playfully before seeing a smirk on Taylor's lips as well as a certain look in his eyes. A look that told her she was going to get fucked tonight.
