Some Dance To Remember, Some Dance To Forget
Zac sat in the back of his truck as he finished off a joint he had been smoking. He had left work not too long ago and he had drove down to the beach. Today marked a year since he had seen Avery again and he kept flash-backing to that time. He almost regretted not keeping up with her in that crowd. He regretted the fact that he had let her get away from him.
Getting off the tailgate he closed it up and went around to the driver's side of his car where he got in and eventually drove off. He knew where he was going as he had been going their once a week since that day a year ago. He kept going back in hopes that he'd run into her again and even though by now he doubted he would he just couldn't stop himself. He couldn't bring himself to stop going.
When he got to the street the restaurant was on he parked his car on the side then headed down towards it. Once he went inside he ordered his regular lunch and then he went to his regular seat. It was the same one he had been sitting in when he had spotted Avery again. He knew it was pathetic but maybe that was just the way his life was going to be now. It was going to be some big old pathetic mess because he missed the woman he loved and he was still to stubborn to end things with the woman who he was pretending to love.
After he finished his lunch he felt his cellphone vibrate in his pocket and he took it out seeing it was Brenda calling him. "Hello?" he asked into the receiver as he raised an eyebrow wondering what Brenda wanted.
"Hey babe," Brenda smiled as she heard Zac answer his phone. "I was just calling to remind you that Natalie is coming for dinner tonight. She is visiting from Kentucky and tonight is her last night and she decided to come join us for dinner."
Hearing Brenda mention Natalie, Zac swallowed hard. He still hadn't told her that Natalie outed them to Avery. He knew it probably would have made Brenda mad and ruined whatever friendship the two women had. It was something he hadn't wanted to do even if he was pissed about it himself. It hadn't been Natalie's place to say anything to Avery.
"O..okay," Zac stuttered hoping Brenda hadn't noticed. "I think I forgot you even mentioned it," he said knowing he usually tuned her out now days when she talked mainly because his mind was elsewhere.
Brenda laughed at Zac's words, "I think you tend to forget most things anyway babe," she said as she teased him. "But I only just mentioned it in a rush this morning so you were probably too sleepy to actually hear. I kind of hope you come home early though. While I don't trust you to cook it would be nice to have your help with getting the table set and stuff."
"I can be home early," Zac told Brenda knowing he'd at least try to be there early though he was dreading being around Natalie again.
It was after he said that, that Brenda said a few more things and then they hung up though he didn't return her I love you. He knew he should have but he just couldn't muster that. Not today.
Pocketing his phone he stood up and went to throw his trash away. After doing so he turned to head outside and leave but right as he turned around he felt a thud and he heard someone yelp which made him look down at the floor where a brunette woman had fallen.
Bending down Zac sighed, "I..I'm sorry," he stuttered when he the woman turned her head to look at him. He didn't know if he was just that high but this woman looked so much like Avery yet he could also see their differences too. "I wasn't paying attention."
"Neither was I," Blake confessed as she blushed when the man kept staring at her. "I had just gotten off the phone with my fiancee and I guess I just wanted to hurry up and leave so I could go meet him for some last minute wedding planning," she laughed.
When the woman talked Zac knew for sure in his heart she wasn't Avery. After all Avery hadn't had no English accent but this woman when she was silent could at least pass for her sister, "Here let me help you up," he said as he held his hand out to her as he stood up. "It's the least I can do right. I mean running into a pretty woman like you," he winked not even caring that he was flirting after she had said she was engaged. Avery had been married and that hadn't stopped him then.
Blake blushed but she took the man's hand as she stood up, "Well thank you for helping me up kind stranger," she nodded as she returned his wink.
"The name's Zac," Zac told her as he let go of her hand. "I mean so you don't have to keep calling me a stranger."
"Blake," Blake nodded as she introduced herself to him. "And I really should get going now," she laughed as she chewed her lip. "Maybe we'll see each other again sometime."
Zac smirked at her words, "Maybe we will," he said hoping they did. "I come here every week on this day," he informed her. "I mean in case you want to accidentally run into me again."
Laughing Blake just shook her head, "I'll keep that in mind," she said before turning to leave the restaurant.
Zac watched Blake leave and he sighed. He knew he shouldn't get involved with her or even entertain those ideas but she looked like Avery and she had that same innocent look in her eyes that Avery had. He wanted and he needed that again just to maybe feel somewhat whole and complete.
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Two weeks later Zac sat up in the hotel bed. Yesterday had been the the third time he had meet with Blake at the restaurant and they had spent all day talking. Talking which eventually lead to flirting and agreeing to get drinks. It was after drinks that they had ended up here at this hotel.
Blake had admitted this wrong and she shouldn't be doing this yet she had still followed through with the sex. The sex had been amazing too even if every time Zac looked at Blake he was seeing Avery. It was just too easy to see her when he looked at the woman he was with. At least with her he hadn't had to close his eyes and see Avery's face like he had to do with Brenda. No he could keep his eyes open.
"You okay?" Blake asked from the bed where she laid. Zac's movements had woke her up.
"Yeah, I'm fine," Zac said as he turned to look at her. "I'm just scared you'll regret what we did. I mean with your engagement and all."
Blake shook her head, "I don't regret it. It's not like my fiancee is having sex with me anyway. He wants to remain celibate until the wedding."
Smiling when Blake said she didn't regret it Zac laid down and kissed her on the lips, "He's stupid for trying to not have sex with such an attractive woman," he whispered into Blake's mouth. "And I don't regret what happened either," he said before kissing her again.
Zac knew his words were true. He couldn't regret something that made him remember the woman he wanted to be with and that was why he hoped this sex with Blake wouldn't just be a one time thing. He needed to keep her around for as long as he could so maybe in some twisted way he could pretend he was with Avery again.
Zac sat in the back of his truck as he finished off a joint he had been smoking. He had left work not too long ago and he had drove down to the beach. Today marked a year since he had seen Avery again and he kept flash-backing to that time. He almost regretted not keeping up with her in that crowd. He regretted the fact that he had let her get away from him.
Getting off the tailgate he closed it up and went around to the driver's side of his car where he got in and eventually drove off. He knew where he was going as he had been going their once a week since that day a year ago. He kept going back in hopes that he'd run into her again and even though by now he doubted he would he just couldn't stop himself. He couldn't bring himself to stop going.
When he got to the street the restaurant was on he parked his car on the side then headed down towards it. Once he went inside he ordered his regular lunch and then he went to his regular seat. It was the same one he had been sitting in when he had spotted Avery again. He knew it was pathetic but maybe that was just the way his life was going to be now. It was going to be some big old pathetic mess because he missed the woman he loved and he was still to stubborn to end things with the woman who he was pretending to love.
After he finished his lunch he felt his cellphone vibrate in his pocket and he took it out seeing it was Brenda calling him. "Hello?" he asked into the receiver as he raised an eyebrow wondering what Brenda wanted.
"Hey babe," Brenda smiled as she heard Zac answer his phone. "I was just calling to remind you that Natalie is coming for dinner tonight. She is visiting from Kentucky and tonight is her last night and she decided to come join us for dinner."
Hearing Brenda mention Natalie, Zac swallowed hard. He still hadn't told her that Natalie outed them to Avery. He knew it probably would have made Brenda mad and ruined whatever friendship the two women had. It was something he hadn't wanted to do even if he was pissed about it himself. It hadn't been Natalie's place to say anything to Avery.
"O..okay," Zac stuttered hoping Brenda hadn't noticed. "I think I forgot you even mentioned it," he said knowing he usually tuned her out now days when she talked mainly because his mind was elsewhere.
Brenda laughed at Zac's words, "I think you tend to forget most things anyway babe," she said as she teased him. "But I only just mentioned it in a rush this morning so you were probably too sleepy to actually hear. I kind of hope you come home early though. While I don't trust you to cook it would be nice to have your help with getting the table set and stuff."
"I can be home early," Zac told Brenda knowing he'd at least try to be there early though he was dreading being around Natalie again.
It was after he said that, that Brenda said a few more things and then they hung up though he didn't return her I love you. He knew he should have but he just couldn't muster that. Not today.
Pocketing his phone he stood up and went to throw his trash away. After doing so he turned to head outside and leave but right as he turned around he felt a thud and he heard someone yelp which made him look down at the floor where a brunette woman had fallen.
Bending down Zac sighed, "I..I'm sorry," he stuttered when he the woman turned her head to look at him. He didn't know if he was just that high but this woman looked so much like Avery yet he could also see their differences too. "I wasn't paying attention."
"Neither was I," Blake confessed as she blushed when the man kept staring at her. "I had just gotten off the phone with my fiancee and I guess I just wanted to hurry up and leave so I could go meet him for some last minute wedding planning," she laughed.
When the woman talked Zac knew for sure in his heart she wasn't Avery. After all Avery hadn't had no English accent but this woman when she was silent could at least pass for her sister, "Here let me help you up," he said as he held his hand out to her as he stood up. "It's the least I can do right. I mean running into a pretty woman like you," he winked not even caring that he was flirting after she had said she was engaged. Avery had been married and that hadn't stopped him then.
Blake blushed but she took the man's hand as she stood up, "Well thank you for helping me up kind stranger," she nodded as she returned his wink.
"The name's Zac," Zac told her as he let go of her hand. "I mean so you don't have to keep calling me a stranger."
"Blake," Blake nodded as she introduced herself to him. "And I really should get going now," she laughed as she chewed her lip. "Maybe we'll see each other again sometime."
Zac smirked at her words, "Maybe we will," he said hoping they did. "I come here every week on this day," he informed her. "I mean in case you want to accidentally run into me again."
Laughing Blake just shook her head, "I'll keep that in mind," she said before turning to leave the restaurant.
Zac watched Blake leave and he sighed. He knew he shouldn't get involved with her or even entertain those ideas but she looked like Avery and she had that same innocent look in her eyes that Avery had. He wanted and he needed that again just to maybe feel somewhat whole and complete.
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Two weeks later Zac sat up in the hotel bed. Yesterday had been the the third time he had meet with Blake at the restaurant and they had spent all day talking. Talking which eventually lead to flirting and agreeing to get drinks. It was after drinks that they had ended up here at this hotel.
Blake had admitted this wrong and she shouldn't be doing this yet she had still followed through with the sex. The sex had been amazing too even if every time Zac looked at Blake he was seeing Avery. It was just too easy to see her when he looked at the woman he was with. At least with her he hadn't had to close his eyes and see Avery's face like he had to do with Brenda. No he could keep his eyes open.
"You okay?" Blake asked from the bed where she laid. Zac's movements had woke her up.
"Yeah, I'm fine," Zac said as he turned to look at her. "I'm just scared you'll regret what we did. I mean with your engagement and all."
Blake shook her head, "I don't regret it. It's not like my fiancee is having sex with me anyway. He wants to remain celibate until the wedding."
Smiling when Blake said she didn't regret it Zac laid down and kissed her on the lips, "He's stupid for trying to not have sex with such an attractive woman," he whispered into Blake's mouth. "And I don't regret what happened either," he said before kissing her again.
Zac knew his words were true. He couldn't regret something that made him remember the woman he wanted to be with and that was why he hoped this sex with Blake wouldn't just be a one time thing. He needed to keep her around for as long as he could so maybe in some twisted way he could pretend he was with Avery again.