Can't Win For Losing Chapter Twenty-One
Avery smiled some to herself as she sat on the stairs of one of the cabins that Taylor's parents owned. A week had past since the Fourth of July and the family was still here. Apparently two days before the trip up Walker had insisted they stay weeks like they used to do when Isaac and Taylor had been little. He had said this was the first time the whole family was together in awhile and he had wanted them to actually spend time together without the hassles of work or outside life.
Of course agreeing to come meant that Avery had to call where she worked last minute but they had been understanding and to be honest Avery was glad mainly because she still wasn't feeling all that well. She no longer felt as exhausted as she had but she was still tired and she was still experiencing her nausea's which had now apparently not just stayed to milk. Last night she had gotten sick actually physically thrown up at the smell of roasting hot dogs.
Taylor had suggested she just go on to bed for the night and she had, she had went to bed in the cabin she was sharing with Taylor and the boys. It only had two bedrooms and while Taylor had offered to sleep on the couch Avery had shot that down. She didn't see the use in him sleeping there when he could sleep in the bed with her. It wasn't like they hadn't shared a bed before. They could do it again.
Hearing the door of the cabin open Avery was brought out of her thoughts and she turned to see Taylor coming out. He was just wearing his pajama pants and she couldn't help but let her eyes linger on his chest before going up to his hair which was all a mess.
"Just wake up?" she asked him though she knew from his appearance she already had her answer.
Taylor nodded his head before moving to sit down beside her, "I woke up and found you gone," he said as he looked over at her. "I was almost afraid you had gotten sick again but then I didn't hear or see you in the bathroom hurling your guts out."
Laughing at Taylor's wording Avery just made a face, "For that lovely mental image I think I may just hurl on you next time," she teased as she shook her head. "But right now I'm feeling okay," she nodded her head. "I actually drank some ginger ale when I woke up and it helped to settle my stomach for the time being."
"That's good," Taylor smiled hearing that the ginger ale had helped her. "But maybe you should go to the doctor. I mean you've been since for awhile now. If it was the flu or a stomach bug it would have already passed."
Avery shook her head at Taylor's suggestion, "I'll be fine," she told him as she sighed. "I don't really like going to the doctor much."
"Sometimes I just forget your stubborn as hell," Taylor sighed before reaching over for her pack of cigarettes that she had laying on the other side of her. "Mind if I bum one?"
Avery shook her head again, "Go right ahead," she told him and handed him her lighter as well. "I just thought you quit smoking," she said knowing he had given it up the year she got pregnant with Charlie. "You sure you want to fall back off that wagon?"
Taylor got a cigarette out and lit it, "I fell off a few weeks ago," he answered after taking a drag from the cigarette. "I needed it to help with my stress."
"Smoking is going to kill you," Avery said to him though the wink she gave him let him know she was teasing him. It wasn't like she had any room to talk since she too smoked. Looking at the time on her wrist watch Avery made a face, "I should probably head to your parents cabin. I told your mom I'd help her with breakfast," she said as she stood from the stairs.
The moment she stood up she felt the world or at least her head spin some before everything went black.
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Opening her eyes Avery closed them again quickly off and on as she grew accustomed to the light in the room. As she did she could hear someone saying her name and she turned her head, "J..Jo?" she asked feeling confused as she saw Zac's mom.
Jolene smiled as she watched Avery come too, "I've been waiting on you to wake up for the last ten minutes," she laughed before walking over to her with a chart in her hand. "Your husband said you took a pretty hard fall when you fainted on him."
"Fainted?" Avery asked as she looked around some realizing that she was laying in a hospital bed. The last thing she had remembered was standing up so she could go help Diana with breakfast.
"Yeah," Jolene nodded as she continued to smile. "Fainted sort of meet the floor," she joked before shaking her head and reaching for the blood pressure cuff. Taking Avery's blood pressure and temperature she made face. "Well you aren't running a fever which is odd since your husband said you have also been sick and your blood pressure is fine," she said as she wrote down the stuff in Avery's chart.
Hearing Jolene tell her that everything was fine Avery made a face not understanding why she had been feeling horrible if she seemed fine.
"The doctor will probably run more in depth tests," Jolene told her once she had stayed silent. "But before that I need to ask you some standard questions," she said not even sure if she wanted to ask the questions. "How long have you had your symptoms?"
"Since the 28th," Avery answered as she watched Jolene start to write. "I was exhausted that day and I started getting nausea's," she said as she shrugged. "The smell of milk on cereal or even the sight of the milk just made me dry heave. I never actually got sick until last night when my husband's family was roasting hot dogs. The smell just got to me and I had to run off in the woods and get sick because I was not going to make it to the cabin in time."
Jolene just sighed and wrote down what Avery told her before looking back up at her, "When was your last period?"
At the last period question Avery blushed some, "July 4th...though I only spotted for a day or two. Usually I'm full on seven days."
Nodding Jolene wrote that down, "And when was your last full on period?" she asked trying to keep her face from showing any emotions except for her usual smile.
"June 6th," Avery answered as she looked down her blush growing deeper. She was uncomfortable telling Zac's mom this stuff.
"And do you think you could be pregnant?" Jolene asked her final question. "I mean the doctor will probably do a blood test anyway but is there a possibility you could be pregnant?"
When Jolene asked her if there was a possibility she could be pregnant Avery was about to say no. She was about to say that she was taking birth control but then she nodded yes. "I sort of stopped taking my birth control after moving into my apartment. The stress of moving was just making me forget and I guess I never started back after," she sighed as she made a face knowing she had been with Zac during that time period. That was around the time they had first had sex and after the first time they were like fucking rabbits doing it every night and once or twice they had even found time to have a quickie during the day before being together at night.
After she answered Jolene's question she again watched as the woman wrote what she said down and then walked out of the room without another word. It wasn't long after she had left that the doctor came in and asked basically the same questions and then said he'd be doing tests on her and that once the results of all the tests came back then she could more than likely leave.
Avery just nodded her head and stayed silent. She stayed silent through the doctor talking and then she stayed silent when the woman who came to take her blood did that. It was only when she saw Jolene come back into her room that she perked up some.
"Well Avery," Jolene said as she looked down at the papers which held the results of Avery's test. "Your results are in and everything seems to be well for you and your baby," she said feeling a lump form in her throat at the last part. Avery was pregnant and Zac was gone off to California with Brenda. This was almost the outcome Jolene had dreaded except Zac wasn't the one who had gotten hurt and left behind. No Avery had been the one left though she could still go back to Taylor. "You are pregnant."
Looking away as Jolene told her she was pregnant Avery had to digest what the woman was saying. She was having a baby and it was all because she had been careless again. She had let things happen and now here she was having her third unplanned child though this baby wouldn't be Taylor's. It wouldn't even be a Hanson and she was almost afraid what they would think. She was afraid of what Taylor would think mainly because she still hadn't told him she had sex with Zac. He was probably still under the assumption that all they had done was mutually masturbate each other.
When she looked up to say something to Jolene it was when she noticed that the older woman was crying and Avery raised an eyebrow, "Jo?" she asked as she slowly stood from the hospital bed and walked over to the woman. "Are you okay?"
Jolene shook her head no when Avery asked her if she was okay, "I didn't want this outcome for you," she said in between sobs. "I didn't want you and Zac to have a similar fate to Walker and I," she revealed. "I tried to tell you in your kitchen that day to just end things before they went too far. Though I was scared it would be Zac who was left out like I was when Walker went back to Diana but no Zac left you and now you're having his baby and he's with Brenda and you..I don't know what you will do but this is going to complicate things."
Avery stayed silent as she listened to Jolene's words and she made a face feeling shocked when she heard Jolene mention Walker and him going back to Diana. Jolene was the woman Diana had been talking about too that day in her kitchen. Now everything seemed to make sense as to why they hated each other.
"Wait.." Avery started as she looked at Jolene her eyebrow raising. Again she was remembering conversations that had taken place before. Zac saying hims mom told him she had met his dad at her father's church and her father calling Jolene a whore. "Walker is Zac's father?" she asked though it was more of a statement.
Jolene nodded her head at Avery's question, "I think besides me the only other person who knows is Diana and well now you."
As she stood there Avery found herself again having to digest stuff. Having to come to terms with stuff and she shook her head as she put a hand on her still flat belly. "Oh fuck," she muttered knowing this did complicate things. She was having a baby that belonged to Taylor's half-brother. A half-brother he didn't even have a clue about.
Before either woman could say anything else though there was a knock on the door of her room and Avery turned to see Taylor standing there.
"Is everything okay?" Taylor asked her as he raised an eyebrow.
Avery nodded as she walked towards him, "Everything is fine," she said knowing what she had to do. "It was just some stomach bug that lasted longer but now that I know what it is I can get it taken care of," she lied as she turned to look at Jolene. The woman had composed herself and from the looks she was giving Avery she knew what Avery was going to do as well. Avery was going to get an abortion. At least she could stop another complicated thing from happening between the Coleman's and the Hanson's.
Taylor looked confused but just shrugged, "So you can go now?" he asked her as he chewed his lips. "The boys are getting restless in waiting on you but they refused to go back to the cabins with Isaac and Nikki when they left."
"Yeah we can go now," Avery told him as she started to leave with him but when Jolene told her to hang on a second Avery told Taylor to leave and go back with the boys who were probably driving his parents crazy. After he had left she turned to face Jolene again.
"Before Zac left he told me what his favorite day with you was," Jolene said as she gave Avery a smile. "He said it was the day you two took your sons to the zoo and then took them out for ice cream. He said that night might not have ended well but that day was the best because being with your sons made him realize he could be a good father one day," she said as her voice cracked. "But then he added in that going back to Brenda he'd have to give up on that fantasy. Brenda doesn't want any kids and so he said he'd just keep that memory to go on for a what if. But it doesn't have to be a what if for him. He can be a daddy."
Swallowing hard at Jolene's words Avery bit her lip hard to keep from losing it. "Is this your way of saying not to have an abortion?"
"It's my way of saying that sometimes complications can be good," Jolene nodded knowing that this may not have been what she wanted but maybe this would be what her son wanted. "I'm not saying not to do anything. I can't even make you tell my son and by law I can't even tell him if you don't want me too but I'm saying that this could be good."
Avery looked down briefly and sighed, "I'll consider things," she told Jolene before turning and walking out to the waiting room where her boys were waiting. She had meant what she said when she told Jolene she'd consider things.
Avery smiled some to herself as she sat on the stairs of one of the cabins that Taylor's parents owned. A week had past since the Fourth of July and the family was still here. Apparently two days before the trip up Walker had insisted they stay weeks like they used to do when Isaac and Taylor had been little. He had said this was the first time the whole family was together in awhile and he had wanted them to actually spend time together without the hassles of work or outside life.
Of course agreeing to come meant that Avery had to call where she worked last minute but they had been understanding and to be honest Avery was glad mainly because she still wasn't feeling all that well. She no longer felt as exhausted as she had but she was still tired and she was still experiencing her nausea's which had now apparently not just stayed to milk. Last night she had gotten sick actually physically thrown up at the smell of roasting hot dogs.
Taylor had suggested she just go on to bed for the night and she had, she had went to bed in the cabin she was sharing with Taylor and the boys. It only had two bedrooms and while Taylor had offered to sleep on the couch Avery had shot that down. She didn't see the use in him sleeping there when he could sleep in the bed with her. It wasn't like they hadn't shared a bed before. They could do it again.
Hearing the door of the cabin open Avery was brought out of her thoughts and she turned to see Taylor coming out. He was just wearing his pajama pants and she couldn't help but let her eyes linger on his chest before going up to his hair which was all a mess.
"Just wake up?" she asked him though she knew from his appearance she already had her answer.
Taylor nodded his head before moving to sit down beside her, "I woke up and found you gone," he said as he looked over at her. "I was almost afraid you had gotten sick again but then I didn't hear or see you in the bathroom hurling your guts out."
Laughing at Taylor's wording Avery just made a face, "For that lovely mental image I think I may just hurl on you next time," she teased as she shook her head. "But right now I'm feeling okay," she nodded her head. "I actually drank some ginger ale when I woke up and it helped to settle my stomach for the time being."
"That's good," Taylor smiled hearing that the ginger ale had helped her. "But maybe you should go to the doctor. I mean you've been since for awhile now. If it was the flu or a stomach bug it would have already passed."
Avery shook her head at Taylor's suggestion, "I'll be fine," she told him as she sighed. "I don't really like going to the doctor much."
"Sometimes I just forget your stubborn as hell," Taylor sighed before reaching over for her pack of cigarettes that she had laying on the other side of her. "Mind if I bum one?"
Avery shook her head again, "Go right ahead," she told him and handed him her lighter as well. "I just thought you quit smoking," she said knowing he had given it up the year she got pregnant with Charlie. "You sure you want to fall back off that wagon?"
Taylor got a cigarette out and lit it, "I fell off a few weeks ago," he answered after taking a drag from the cigarette. "I needed it to help with my stress."
"Smoking is going to kill you," Avery said to him though the wink she gave him let him know she was teasing him. It wasn't like she had any room to talk since she too smoked. Looking at the time on her wrist watch Avery made a face, "I should probably head to your parents cabin. I told your mom I'd help her with breakfast," she said as she stood from the stairs.
The moment she stood up she felt the world or at least her head spin some before everything went black.
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Opening her eyes Avery closed them again quickly off and on as she grew accustomed to the light in the room. As she did she could hear someone saying her name and she turned her head, "J..Jo?" she asked feeling confused as she saw Zac's mom.
Jolene smiled as she watched Avery come too, "I've been waiting on you to wake up for the last ten minutes," she laughed before walking over to her with a chart in her hand. "Your husband said you took a pretty hard fall when you fainted on him."
"Fainted?" Avery asked as she looked around some realizing that she was laying in a hospital bed. The last thing she had remembered was standing up so she could go help Diana with breakfast.
"Yeah," Jolene nodded as she continued to smile. "Fainted sort of meet the floor," she joked before shaking her head and reaching for the blood pressure cuff. Taking Avery's blood pressure and temperature she made face. "Well you aren't running a fever which is odd since your husband said you have also been sick and your blood pressure is fine," she said as she wrote down the stuff in Avery's chart.
Hearing Jolene tell her that everything was fine Avery made a face not understanding why she had been feeling horrible if she seemed fine.
"The doctor will probably run more in depth tests," Jolene told her once she had stayed silent. "But before that I need to ask you some standard questions," she said not even sure if she wanted to ask the questions. "How long have you had your symptoms?"
"Since the 28th," Avery answered as she watched Jolene start to write. "I was exhausted that day and I started getting nausea's," she said as she shrugged. "The smell of milk on cereal or even the sight of the milk just made me dry heave. I never actually got sick until last night when my husband's family was roasting hot dogs. The smell just got to me and I had to run off in the woods and get sick because I was not going to make it to the cabin in time."
Jolene just sighed and wrote down what Avery told her before looking back up at her, "When was your last period?"
At the last period question Avery blushed some, "July 4th...though I only spotted for a day or two. Usually I'm full on seven days."
Nodding Jolene wrote that down, "And when was your last full on period?" she asked trying to keep her face from showing any emotions except for her usual smile.
"June 6th," Avery answered as she looked down her blush growing deeper. She was uncomfortable telling Zac's mom this stuff.
"And do you think you could be pregnant?" Jolene asked her final question. "I mean the doctor will probably do a blood test anyway but is there a possibility you could be pregnant?"
When Jolene asked her if there was a possibility she could be pregnant Avery was about to say no. She was about to say that she was taking birth control but then she nodded yes. "I sort of stopped taking my birth control after moving into my apartment. The stress of moving was just making me forget and I guess I never started back after," she sighed as she made a face knowing she had been with Zac during that time period. That was around the time they had first had sex and after the first time they were like fucking rabbits doing it every night and once or twice they had even found time to have a quickie during the day before being together at night.
After she answered Jolene's question she again watched as the woman wrote what she said down and then walked out of the room without another word. It wasn't long after she had left that the doctor came in and asked basically the same questions and then said he'd be doing tests on her and that once the results of all the tests came back then she could more than likely leave.
Avery just nodded her head and stayed silent. She stayed silent through the doctor talking and then she stayed silent when the woman who came to take her blood did that. It was only when she saw Jolene come back into her room that she perked up some.
"Well Avery," Jolene said as she looked down at the papers which held the results of Avery's test. "Your results are in and everything seems to be well for you and your baby," she said feeling a lump form in her throat at the last part. Avery was pregnant and Zac was gone off to California with Brenda. This was almost the outcome Jolene had dreaded except Zac wasn't the one who had gotten hurt and left behind. No Avery had been the one left though she could still go back to Taylor. "You are pregnant."
Looking away as Jolene told her she was pregnant Avery had to digest what the woman was saying. She was having a baby and it was all because she had been careless again. She had let things happen and now here she was having her third unplanned child though this baby wouldn't be Taylor's. It wouldn't even be a Hanson and she was almost afraid what they would think. She was afraid of what Taylor would think mainly because she still hadn't told him she had sex with Zac. He was probably still under the assumption that all they had done was mutually masturbate each other.
When she looked up to say something to Jolene it was when she noticed that the older woman was crying and Avery raised an eyebrow, "Jo?" she asked as she slowly stood from the hospital bed and walked over to the woman. "Are you okay?"
Jolene shook her head no when Avery asked her if she was okay, "I didn't want this outcome for you," she said in between sobs. "I didn't want you and Zac to have a similar fate to Walker and I," she revealed. "I tried to tell you in your kitchen that day to just end things before they went too far. Though I was scared it would be Zac who was left out like I was when Walker went back to Diana but no Zac left you and now you're having his baby and he's with Brenda and you..I don't know what you will do but this is going to complicate things."
Avery stayed silent as she listened to Jolene's words and she made a face feeling shocked when she heard Jolene mention Walker and him going back to Diana. Jolene was the woman Diana had been talking about too that day in her kitchen. Now everything seemed to make sense as to why they hated each other.
"Wait.." Avery started as she looked at Jolene her eyebrow raising. Again she was remembering conversations that had taken place before. Zac saying hims mom told him she had met his dad at her father's church and her father calling Jolene a whore. "Walker is Zac's father?" she asked though it was more of a statement.
Jolene nodded her head at Avery's question, "I think besides me the only other person who knows is Diana and well now you."
As she stood there Avery found herself again having to digest stuff. Having to come to terms with stuff and she shook her head as she put a hand on her still flat belly. "Oh fuck," she muttered knowing this did complicate things. She was having a baby that belonged to Taylor's half-brother. A half-brother he didn't even have a clue about.
Before either woman could say anything else though there was a knock on the door of her room and Avery turned to see Taylor standing there.
"Is everything okay?" Taylor asked her as he raised an eyebrow.
Avery nodded as she walked towards him, "Everything is fine," she said knowing what she had to do. "It was just some stomach bug that lasted longer but now that I know what it is I can get it taken care of," she lied as she turned to look at Jolene. The woman had composed herself and from the looks she was giving Avery she knew what Avery was going to do as well. Avery was going to get an abortion. At least she could stop another complicated thing from happening between the Coleman's and the Hanson's.
Taylor looked confused but just shrugged, "So you can go now?" he asked her as he chewed his lips. "The boys are getting restless in waiting on you but they refused to go back to the cabins with Isaac and Nikki when they left."
"Yeah we can go now," Avery told him as she started to leave with him but when Jolene told her to hang on a second Avery told Taylor to leave and go back with the boys who were probably driving his parents crazy. After he had left she turned to face Jolene again.
"Before Zac left he told me what his favorite day with you was," Jolene said as she gave Avery a smile. "He said it was the day you two took your sons to the zoo and then took them out for ice cream. He said that night might not have ended well but that day was the best because being with your sons made him realize he could be a good father one day," she said as her voice cracked. "But then he added in that going back to Brenda he'd have to give up on that fantasy. Brenda doesn't want any kids and so he said he'd just keep that memory to go on for a what if. But it doesn't have to be a what if for him. He can be a daddy."
Swallowing hard at Jolene's words Avery bit her lip hard to keep from losing it. "Is this your way of saying not to have an abortion?"
"It's my way of saying that sometimes complications can be good," Jolene nodded knowing that this may not have been what she wanted but maybe this would be what her son wanted. "I'm not saying not to do anything. I can't even make you tell my son and by law I can't even tell him if you don't want me too but I'm saying that this could be good."
Avery looked down briefly and sighed, "I'll consider things," she told Jolene before turning and walking out to the waiting room where her boys were waiting. She had meant what she said when she told Jolene she'd consider things.