Can't Win For Losing Chapter Fourteen
Avery smiled slightly as she finished unpacking the last box in her apartment. It had been three weeks now since Taylor had mentioned divorce and he indeed had filed for one. A divorce that she hadn't contest and signed the papers too because even if she did have her doubts about this maybe being wrong since she still wasn't one hundred percent on what she wanted, she didn't want to hurt Taylor anymore by cheating on him and ruining what was left of the vows they had made.
Instead she had signed the papers and turned them into her lawyer. One her father insisted on her having especially since Taylor seemed hell bent on still having physical custody of the boys though she hoped the family in transitions thing they attended the other day had helped some. Maybe he could see like the woman who had talked to her and Taylor as well as Jonah, had said. Taking the boys away from her fully would hurt them. Especially since Jonah had insisted that he didn't want to be gone from mommy for too long.
Besides the divorce stuff though she had gotten a job. The first she had, had since being married or having kids. It happened to be at that diner Zac had taken her too, a fact it seemed that Zac liked though Avery teased him that it was only because he liked seeing her in her outfit and with her hair all pulled back.
It was at the thought of Zac though that she stopped smiling as she thought about their three weeks together. They still had only ever just masturbated each other though that had stopped last week when her period came. He couldn't get her off but she still sometimes got him off last week. But in the end Avery was confused as to why he hadn't tried more with her. Why he hadn't mentioned her going down on him or even alluded to the possibility of having sex with her whenever they could. It almost made her feel that maybe he didn't find her as attractive as he said. Maybe she was just too momish for him.
When she heard a knock at the door Avery came out of her thoughts and looked at the watch on her wrist. It was no where near time for Taylor to bring the boys by so that she could have them for the weekend and the coming week. She hadn't physically had custody of them since she had let Zoe drop them off after church and she was missing them badly. She may not have been sure how she felt being tied down as a wife right now but one thing she was certain of after three weeks of this new life was the fact that she loved being a mother. She loved her kids and she was sure she wouldn't trade them even if they had partly caused her to miss out on stuff.
Going to the door Avery opened it and raised an eyebrow as she came face to face with Jolene who was holding a container of some food. "I wasn't expecting to see you hear Jo," she said as she eventually smiled and moved aside so that Zac's mom could come in. An upside to these past three weeks was that she had gotten to know Zac's mom though his mom still seemed reserved around her.
"Zac said he thought you'd finish moving in today," Jolene shrugged as she stepped inside. "I decided to bring you a dish of my baked macaroni and cheese. Zac always loved it as a kid and gave it rave reviews."
Avery laughed as she shut the door behind Jolene, "I think Zac gives any food rave reviews," she said knowing that Zac seemed to love food. He almost reminded her of her own sons and their appetites. "Though I am surprised he never learned to cook if you can make such amazing food."
"I tried to teach him," Jolene nodded as she walked through Avery's apartment until she made her way into the kitchen. "It turned out horrible. I think I was lucky the only thing he burnt was the food."
Laughing again after she made it to the kitchen behind Jolene she just shook her head. "Then I will remember not to try to teach him how to cook," she said writing herself a mental note. "Don't need him burning down my apartment complex by accident."
Jolene shook her head, "No that wouldn't be good," she said as she sat the container down on Avery's stove. "I can say bringing you food isn't the only other reason I came here though," she said as she turned to face the younger woman whose place she was visiting.
"Oh?" Avery asked when Jolene said that bringing the food by wasn't the only reason she had came.
"I wanted to tell you not to hurt my son," Jolene sighed as she looked away from Avery and down at the floor. "Zac claims he doesn't love you but he does. I know my son well enough to know he loves you and I also know you are married or well going through a divorce now," she said as she finally looked back up. "I know from experience what it's like to get burned by someone whose marriage is supposedly rocky and then they decide to have a change of heart. I don't want that to happen to my son."
When Avery heard Jolene say that she was sure Zac loved her she couldn't help but feel her heart stop beating for a few seconds. Here she had been doubting her attractiveness to him and now his mom was standing in front of her saying she thought Zac loved her. She thought Zac loved her and she didn't want Avery to hurt him.
At Avery's silence Jolene decided to keep talking, "I see you still wear your wedding band," she nodded towards Avery's hands. "I bet you right now if your husband walked through that door and the two of you had a good heart to heart you'd go back to him without a second thought towards my son."
"And you don't want me to take back my husband if we had a heart to heart?" Avery asked as she felt herself swallow hard. She wasn't sure it would be that easy for Taylor to want her back even if they ever did have a heart to heart but then again it was like Zac's mom said she probably would at this rate go back to Taylor if it did ever come down to that. Like Jolene had pointed out she still wore her ring and a part of her wasn't ready to remove it or and she didn't even know when she would be ready.
"I'm not saying that," Jolene said as she shook her head. "I'm just saying I'd want you to consider Zac before just jumping to make a decision or if you know that what I said could even be a possibility then let my son down. Don't let him get hurt because he already had his heart broken several months ago and that's why he is home again."
Nodding Avery gave Jolene a smile, "I won't hurt Zac," she said honestly knowing she would do her best to try not to hurt him. "I promise you Jo."
Jolene gave Avery a smile before nodding as well, "I should go then," she spoke before leaving the kitchen. "I said what I needed to say and I trust what you said," she said as she heard Avery following behind her.
Stopping when both she and Jolene reached her door Avery just gave the woman a smile again before reaching out to open her door. The moment she pulled her door open she froze as she saw Diana standing in her doorway. A container of food in her hands as well. What was with both of the men in her life's moms bringing her food and on the same day?
Diana who had looked up when she heard the door open felt herself freeze as she saw Avery standing behind a woman who she had hoped would have stayed in her past. A woman who had almost ruined her family and marriage.
When Diana remained silent and frozen and her face looking like she was about to faint Avery raised an eyebrow before turning to look at Jolene whose one reaction was almost the same. "I..is everything okay?" she asked softly as she looked between both women a few times.
Hearing Avery speak Jolene was brought back to reality and she looked away from Diana. She hadn't seen the woman since the day she had came to her when Zac had been a baby. "Why don't you ask Diana all about it," Jolene said before slipping past Diana and leaving. Apparently it seemed the Hanson's were still in the dark about Walker's past and hell maybe Walker was in the dark that he even had a son. Diana had said she had only found out Jolene was pregnant thanks to seeing her at the doctors when she had taken one of her own boys.
Diana glared at Jolene's words but watched the woman leave, "Jolene and I are just old acquaintances," she sighed as she shook her head and barged her way inside the house after the redhead had left. "I didn't even known you knew the Coleman family."
"Jo's son is umm...he is a friend," Avery nodded as she shut the door behind Diana. "I mean I'm sure Taylor has told you why he are getting a divorce," she said as she took the container of food from Diana's hand and headed into the kitchen with it. "Taylor always tells you stuff more so than he tells his own father."
Diana stopped in her tracks as she followed Avery to the kitchen, "Jolene's son is the one you are cheating on Taylor with?" she asked her voice turning to one of displeasure and anger. Anger that another Coleman was going to mess up her family in some way. All she could hope was that Avery and Taylor were able to work things out like she and Walker had done. Jolene's bastard child could be like his mom for all she cared and be left in the cold. Though she really hoped the man didn't knock Avery up. She wasn't sure she could live with knowing her son could be tied to the Coleman family, that she in someway would have to be tied to them. She had never even told Walker about his baby because of the fear that he'd leave her for the woman again.
"I'm not..I mean I guess I am but I mean we haven't even had sex so I'm not even sure that's really cheating," Avery said feeling uncomfortable even telling Diana what she had but she at least wanted to clear up that she wasn't that horrible. That she hadn't had sex with Zac even though she did kind of want too.
Sighing in relief Diana smiled some, "Trust me you don't want to have sex with him Avery," she said shaking her head. "Or any other man for that matter. I think this whole thing with you and Taylor is ridiculous anyway and you two should just sit down calmly and fix your marriage. Stop this sham of a divorce," she said as she watched Avery set the container of the food she had brought on the stove next to another container.
Diana had a feeling the other was from Jolene and it made her angry again that the woman was even getting close to her daughter-in-law. Diana herself wasn't particularly close to Avery and she didn't want Walker's ex and the mother of the child he didn't know about to get close to her.
"Walker and I almost divorced too once," Diana said finally coming out of her thoughts as she gave Avery a smile. "All it took was me talking to him and us agreeing to go to counseling to fix things."
Listening to Diana, Avery swallowed hard as she sighed. Of course Diana would force the idea of reconciliation upon her, "Trust me I'm sure your and Walker's issues aren't the same as mine and Taylor's. Just because your marriage was that easily fixable doesn't mean ours is. Maybe it's best if we divorce."
Diana shook her head, "It was very similar actually," she nodded. "He left me for another woman," she said bitterly as her mind flashed to Jolene. "Luckily he realized he never really loved her though and I'm confident you'll realize that with Jolene's son."
"This has nothing to do with whether I love Zac or not," Avery spoke as she raised her voice slightly. "It has to do with me wanting to experience things and yes Zac can help but it has nothing to do with me loving him or not or even me leaving Taylor for him. Taylor's the one that left me," she said as she locked eyes with Diana. "Now I am asking you to please go Diana. I have to get my house ready before Taylor brings the boys by and I can't do that if we stand here having a conversation on your supposed theories on why my marriage is ending or even what I may or may not realize."
Taken aback at Avery's outburst Diana just sighed before turning and walking away to leave like her daughter-in-law wanted from her.
Watching as Diana left Avery ran a hand through her hair as she stayed in the kitchen. She hadn't meant to go off on Diana but the talks with both women were just making things more confusing for her than she had already felt. Diana wanted her to just jump back and fix things with Taylor while Jolene wanted her to consider Zac maybe even let Zac go if she realized reconciliation was what she wanted with her husband.
It was the thought of letting Zac go that scared her, though right now, she was sure she didn't love him. She did feel something for him though but she wasn't sure what but it wasn't love. She couldn't love him when she had willingly admitted to herself if she and Taylor had a heart to heart and he wanted to patch things up she'd go running. She couldn't love him when she still wore her wedding band to another man.
But there was something, something there that had made her scared of letting him go. Avery knew she did have some feelings for him or it'd be easier to handle thoughts of letting him go. It'd be easier to want to ditch him and go back to her husband. There was something that just made her unable to quit Zac or whatever this thing was they had between them regardless of loving her husband.
Avery smiled slightly as she finished unpacking the last box in her apartment. It had been three weeks now since Taylor had mentioned divorce and he indeed had filed for one. A divorce that she hadn't contest and signed the papers too because even if she did have her doubts about this maybe being wrong since she still wasn't one hundred percent on what she wanted, she didn't want to hurt Taylor anymore by cheating on him and ruining what was left of the vows they had made.
Instead she had signed the papers and turned them into her lawyer. One her father insisted on her having especially since Taylor seemed hell bent on still having physical custody of the boys though she hoped the family in transitions thing they attended the other day had helped some. Maybe he could see like the woman who had talked to her and Taylor as well as Jonah, had said. Taking the boys away from her fully would hurt them. Especially since Jonah had insisted that he didn't want to be gone from mommy for too long.
Besides the divorce stuff though she had gotten a job. The first she had, had since being married or having kids. It happened to be at that diner Zac had taken her too, a fact it seemed that Zac liked though Avery teased him that it was only because he liked seeing her in her outfit and with her hair all pulled back.
It was at the thought of Zac though that she stopped smiling as she thought about their three weeks together. They still had only ever just masturbated each other though that had stopped last week when her period came. He couldn't get her off but she still sometimes got him off last week. But in the end Avery was confused as to why he hadn't tried more with her. Why he hadn't mentioned her going down on him or even alluded to the possibility of having sex with her whenever they could. It almost made her feel that maybe he didn't find her as attractive as he said. Maybe she was just too momish for him.
When she heard a knock at the door Avery came out of her thoughts and looked at the watch on her wrist. It was no where near time for Taylor to bring the boys by so that she could have them for the weekend and the coming week. She hadn't physically had custody of them since she had let Zoe drop them off after church and she was missing them badly. She may not have been sure how she felt being tied down as a wife right now but one thing she was certain of after three weeks of this new life was the fact that she loved being a mother. She loved her kids and she was sure she wouldn't trade them even if they had partly caused her to miss out on stuff.
Going to the door Avery opened it and raised an eyebrow as she came face to face with Jolene who was holding a container of some food. "I wasn't expecting to see you hear Jo," she said as she eventually smiled and moved aside so that Zac's mom could come in. An upside to these past three weeks was that she had gotten to know Zac's mom though his mom still seemed reserved around her.
"Zac said he thought you'd finish moving in today," Jolene shrugged as she stepped inside. "I decided to bring you a dish of my baked macaroni and cheese. Zac always loved it as a kid and gave it rave reviews."
Avery laughed as she shut the door behind Jolene, "I think Zac gives any food rave reviews," she said knowing that Zac seemed to love food. He almost reminded her of her own sons and their appetites. "Though I am surprised he never learned to cook if you can make such amazing food."
"I tried to teach him," Jolene nodded as she walked through Avery's apartment until she made her way into the kitchen. "It turned out horrible. I think I was lucky the only thing he burnt was the food."
Laughing again after she made it to the kitchen behind Jolene she just shook her head. "Then I will remember not to try to teach him how to cook," she said writing herself a mental note. "Don't need him burning down my apartment complex by accident."
Jolene shook her head, "No that wouldn't be good," she said as she sat the container down on Avery's stove. "I can say bringing you food isn't the only other reason I came here though," she said as she turned to face the younger woman whose place she was visiting.
"Oh?" Avery asked when Jolene said that bringing the food by wasn't the only reason she had came.
"I wanted to tell you not to hurt my son," Jolene sighed as she looked away from Avery and down at the floor. "Zac claims he doesn't love you but he does. I know my son well enough to know he loves you and I also know you are married or well going through a divorce now," she said as she finally looked back up. "I know from experience what it's like to get burned by someone whose marriage is supposedly rocky and then they decide to have a change of heart. I don't want that to happen to my son."
When Avery heard Jolene say that she was sure Zac loved her she couldn't help but feel her heart stop beating for a few seconds. Here she had been doubting her attractiveness to him and now his mom was standing in front of her saying she thought Zac loved her. She thought Zac loved her and she didn't want Avery to hurt him.
At Avery's silence Jolene decided to keep talking, "I see you still wear your wedding band," she nodded towards Avery's hands. "I bet you right now if your husband walked through that door and the two of you had a good heart to heart you'd go back to him without a second thought towards my son."
"And you don't want me to take back my husband if we had a heart to heart?" Avery asked as she felt herself swallow hard. She wasn't sure it would be that easy for Taylor to want her back even if they ever did have a heart to heart but then again it was like Zac's mom said she probably would at this rate go back to Taylor if it did ever come down to that. Like Jolene had pointed out she still wore her ring and a part of her wasn't ready to remove it or and she didn't even know when she would be ready.
"I'm not saying that," Jolene said as she shook her head. "I'm just saying I'd want you to consider Zac before just jumping to make a decision or if you know that what I said could even be a possibility then let my son down. Don't let him get hurt because he already had his heart broken several months ago and that's why he is home again."
Nodding Avery gave Jolene a smile, "I won't hurt Zac," she said honestly knowing she would do her best to try not to hurt him. "I promise you Jo."
Jolene gave Avery a smile before nodding as well, "I should go then," she spoke before leaving the kitchen. "I said what I needed to say and I trust what you said," she said as she heard Avery following behind her.
Stopping when both she and Jolene reached her door Avery just gave the woman a smile again before reaching out to open her door. The moment she pulled her door open she froze as she saw Diana standing in her doorway. A container of food in her hands as well. What was with both of the men in her life's moms bringing her food and on the same day?
Diana who had looked up when she heard the door open felt herself freeze as she saw Avery standing behind a woman who she had hoped would have stayed in her past. A woman who had almost ruined her family and marriage.
When Diana remained silent and frozen and her face looking like she was about to faint Avery raised an eyebrow before turning to look at Jolene whose one reaction was almost the same. "I..is everything okay?" she asked softly as she looked between both women a few times.
Hearing Avery speak Jolene was brought back to reality and she looked away from Diana. She hadn't seen the woman since the day she had came to her when Zac had been a baby. "Why don't you ask Diana all about it," Jolene said before slipping past Diana and leaving. Apparently it seemed the Hanson's were still in the dark about Walker's past and hell maybe Walker was in the dark that he even had a son. Diana had said she had only found out Jolene was pregnant thanks to seeing her at the doctors when she had taken one of her own boys.
Diana glared at Jolene's words but watched the woman leave, "Jolene and I are just old acquaintances," she sighed as she shook her head and barged her way inside the house after the redhead had left. "I didn't even known you knew the Coleman family."
"Jo's son is umm...he is a friend," Avery nodded as she shut the door behind Diana. "I mean I'm sure Taylor has told you why he are getting a divorce," she said as she took the container of food from Diana's hand and headed into the kitchen with it. "Taylor always tells you stuff more so than he tells his own father."
Diana stopped in her tracks as she followed Avery to the kitchen, "Jolene's son is the one you are cheating on Taylor with?" she asked her voice turning to one of displeasure and anger. Anger that another Coleman was going to mess up her family in some way. All she could hope was that Avery and Taylor were able to work things out like she and Walker had done. Jolene's bastard child could be like his mom for all she cared and be left in the cold. Though she really hoped the man didn't knock Avery up. She wasn't sure she could live with knowing her son could be tied to the Coleman family, that she in someway would have to be tied to them. She had never even told Walker about his baby because of the fear that he'd leave her for the woman again.
"I'm not..I mean I guess I am but I mean we haven't even had sex so I'm not even sure that's really cheating," Avery said feeling uncomfortable even telling Diana what she had but she at least wanted to clear up that she wasn't that horrible. That she hadn't had sex with Zac even though she did kind of want too.
Sighing in relief Diana smiled some, "Trust me you don't want to have sex with him Avery," she said shaking her head. "Or any other man for that matter. I think this whole thing with you and Taylor is ridiculous anyway and you two should just sit down calmly and fix your marriage. Stop this sham of a divorce," she said as she watched Avery set the container of the food she had brought on the stove next to another container.
Diana had a feeling the other was from Jolene and it made her angry again that the woman was even getting close to her daughter-in-law. Diana herself wasn't particularly close to Avery and she didn't want Walker's ex and the mother of the child he didn't know about to get close to her.
"Walker and I almost divorced too once," Diana said finally coming out of her thoughts as she gave Avery a smile. "All it took was me talking to him and us agreeing to go to counseling to fix things."
Listening to Diana, Avery swallowed hard as she sighed. Of course Diana would force the idea of reconciliation upon her, "Trust me I'm sure your and Walker's issues aren't the same as mine and Taylor's. Just because your marriage was that easily fixable doesn't mean ours is. Maybe it's best if we divorce."
Diana shook her head, "It was very similar actually," she nodded. "He left me for another woman," she said bitterly as her mind flashed to Jolene. "Luckily he realized he never really loved her though and I'm confident you'll realize that with Jolene's son."
"This has nothing to do with whether I love Zac or not," Avery spoke as she raised her voice slightly. "It has to do with me wanting to experience things and yes Zac can help but it has nothing to do with me loving him or not or even me leaving Taylor for him. Taylor's the one that left me," she said as she locked eyes with Diana. "Now I am asking you to please go Diana. I have to get my house ready before Taylor brings the boys by and I can't do that if we stand here having a conversation on your supposed theories on why my marriage is ending or even what I may or may not realize."
Taken aback at Avery's outburst Diana just sighed before turning and walking away to leave like her daughter-in-law wanted from her.
Watching as Diana left Avery ran a hand through her hair as she stayed in the kitchen. She hadn't meant to go off on Diana but the talks with both women were just making things more confusing for her than she had already felt. Diana wanted her to just jump back and fix things with Taylor while Jolene wanted her to consider Zac maybe even let Zac go if she realized reconciliation was what she wanted with her husband.
It was the thought of letting Zac go that scared her, though right now, she was sure she didn't love him. She did feel something for him though but she wasn't sure what but it wasn't love. She couldn't love him when she had willingly admitted to herself if she and Taylor had a heart to heart and he wanted to patch things up she'd go running. She couldn't love him when she still wore her wedding band to another man.
But there was something, something there that had made her scared of letting him go. Avery knew she did have some feelings for him or it'd be easier to handle thoughts of letting him go. It'd be easier to want to ditch him and go back to her husband. There was something that just made her unable to quit Zac or whatever this thing was they had between them regardless of loving her husband.
