Can't Win For Losing Chapter Thirteen
Avery smiled to herself as she laid in the back of Zac's truck. They had left the diner hours ago and had just road around until it got dark. Then Zac had taken them to some lake not far from the edge of town. It was nice and quite out here and he said since he didn't have to teach a class until Tuesday that they could stay out as late as she had wanted so here they were just laying in the back of his truck looking at the stars.
"You always keep a blanket in your truck?" Avery asked as she turned to look over at him curiously. "Or did you just have plans on getting laid tonight in the back of your truck?"
Zac laughed as he turned to face Avery, "I always keep a blanket in the back," he winked as he inched his face closer. "In hopes that I do get laid in my truck," he teased before putting his hand on her cheek and leaning in to kiss her. What he said was partly true. He did keep a blanket in the back of his truck but not because he had hopes of getting laid. He had just found with his ex in California that sometimes when she'd kick him out of the house randomly that he'd have to sleep in his truck. Better than getting a motel and he really never had taken the blankets out not even when he came back to Kentucky.
Avery laughed as well as she kissed him back. She knew his words were teasing but the thought of having sex in the back of a truck was appealing to her especially since she and Taylor had always talked about doing it but never having done it. Kissing him harder at thoughts of Taylor she moved closer. This wasn't the time to be thinking of her soon to be ex-husband and she felt wrong for even letting him cross her mind as she laid here kissing another man.
Pulling away from the kiss after awhile she sighed and looked back up at the stars, "Why did you come back here?" she asked curiously. "I mean I don't think I'd ever come back if I got the chance to leave."
"Because I got my heart broken," Zac sighed as he thought about his ex. "My ex found someone else and it hurt me because I was willing to give everything up for her but in the end she found someone more suitable...someone who lived like us and I guess in the end she would have been fine if I never gave everything up," he spoke without really even thinking. In this moment it just seemed like his words were coming out easy and opening up to her was something that he just felt comfortable with.
Avery listened to Zac and she scrunched up her nose, "Lived like you?" she asked confused by his word choice. "What did you guys have some kind of weird lifestyle or something?" she asked though her words were light and meant to be taken as a joke.
At Avery's question Zac swallowed realizing he had probably said too much, "No..at least it wasn't weird to me," he said knowing that when Brenda had gotten him hooked on their kind of life he had fallen into it easy and fast and he had liked it but then Brenda had talked about settling down and getting married and he had reconsidered. He had reconsidered for her but then she dumped him for someone who was in their lifestyle had even been their friend and she had told him he was just too young and she needed someone more mature. Someone closer to her thirty-six then what he'd had been.
"But it's different?" Avery asked again feeling curious now.
"In a way yes," Zac nodded as he sighed. "I just..I'll tell you when I'm ready," he said knowing he did plan telling her. He was just scared of how she'd react. He was scared she'd go running for the hills and he wasn't sure he wanted that because he was sure he was falling for her. He had never fell for someone so hard and so fast but god damn it he was sure he was falling for her and to hell with the fact that she was separated from her husband. He'd just have to hope she didn't break his heart like Brenda did.
Smiling when he said he'd tell her in his own time Avery looked at him again, "You promise?" she asked as she reached for his hand and took it in her own. She hoped Zac would open up to her mainly because in some ways she was opening up to him as well. Even if she still hadn't been entirely honest about the state of her marriage when this whole thing started.
Zac nodded again as he turned to look at her, "I promise babe," he smiled before leaning in to kiss her again this time squeezing her hand as he did so.
Kissing Zac back Avery squeezed his hand too before slowly climbing onto him as she deepened the kiss between them. She wasn't sure exactly what she felt for him but she knew this was dangerous letting him in this close especially as her marriage crumbled. She was scared of what the outcome would be in the end and a part of her didn't want him to get hurt and she also didn't want to get hurt either but someone was going to get hurt though maybe the person who was going to get hurt had already been hurt. Maybe the person to get hurt by all of this was Taylor.
Moaning as Avery deepened the kiss Zac felt her hips eventually roll down into his and he groaned as he felt his reaction to that grow apparent in his jeans. Something he was sure she could feel and he pulled away to look up at her, "M...maybe we should stop," he said as he looked up at her. He knew he had gotten her off twice now with his hand but he wasn't sure if they should go farther or if she was ready for that. He almost wanted to leave the pacing of things up to her.
Avery smiled as she looked down at Zac, "Oh but I wanna repay you for getting me off earlier," she winked before kissing him again her hands going to his jeans as she did so. Slipping them inside she smirked as she rubbed him through his boxers for a bit before finally slipping her hand inside and circling his entire length. It was farther than he had ever gone touching her since his touching had always been through the clothes.
Zac moaned again as Avery's hand wrapped around him and he closed his eyes tight as she began to pump him his hips lifting every so often with the rythm she was making. She was good at this and he was beginning to feel like putty in her hands so to speak. He knew the next time he got her off he'd finally have to touch her directly instead of through her panties.
"You like this?" Avery whispered as she pulled away from the kiss. All she could do was watch his face and the way it would contort a certain way when she'd pump his cock a certain way or when she'd slow down deliberately just to tease him.
All Zac was able to do at her question was nod his head. He knew if he tried to talk no words would come or all that came out would be curse words so instead he just opted to silently answer her question the only way he knew how.
When he nodded Avery just smirked and continued to move her hand faster wanting to bring him to release. Wanting to make him feel as good as he had made her feel twice now.
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Standing in Natalie's kitchen after dinner Taylor looked over at her as they did the dishes, "You were amazing with the boys tonight," he said knowing she had done good especially when Charlie had thrown a fit because his favorite kind of juice wasn't here and then Jonah again complained that his mommy wasn't here and this time he had to throw in that she would have known to have Charlie's favorite kind of juice because she was mommy and mommy just knew everything.
"I was afraid there for a second I wouldn't be," Natalie laughed as she looked up at Taylor. "I mean when Jonah was complaining about his mommy knowing everything I thought for sure that I had lost him and he'd never like me ever."
"But you won him over by having the Aladdin movie," Taylor smiled as he turned briefly to look into the living room where both of his sons were now seated on the couch watching the old Disney movie. A movie that had been a favorite of Jonah's thanks to the countless times he had watched it at Avery's parents house.
Natalie nodded, "I may be glad Aladdin salvaged my relationship with a boy," she joked as she turned away from him and went back to washing the dishes. "So how are you today? I mean I am guessing from earlier today wasn't a good day."
Shaking his head Taylor sighed, "I'm not sure any day will be good from here on out. At least not for awhile Nat. I'm losing the person who completes me. I'm losing my other half and it hurts to know I am losing her because she refuses to give up on some feeling another man gives her."
"I'm sorry she's so blind to see what she has," Natalie said honestly again just feeling like Avery was being selfish in her decisions. "I'm sorry that she seems to be just thinking solely of herself right now."
"So am I," Taylor spoke being honest for once. "I hate that she's doing this and it kills me that I can't change her mind but I don't think anything except me begging could keep her from destroying everything and I refuse to beg. I refuse to look like more of a fool than I already am for even thinking she'd respect the vows we made to each other."
Frowning Natalie finished up the dishes and put her hand on Taylor's back after drying her hands on a dish towel. "At least you are doing the right thing then. Getting out before she hurts you more."
Taylor swallowed a lump in his throat though as Natalie spoke, "That's the thing Nat," he frowned feeling tears go down his cheek. "Even though I am divorcing her I think she'll always still have the ability to hurt me because I'm always going to be in love with her. I can leave her but I can't cut off how I feel for her."
When Natalie saw Taylor crying she couldn't help but pull him into a hug and the moment she did she felt him break down in her arms. His crying getting louder and his body moving against her. Natalie hadn't ever seen Taylor this torn up not even when they broke up and this just broke her heart so much. This broke her heart and it made her hate the woman he called a wife. The woman he claimed to still be in love with.
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Zac stood on his front porch watching as Avery drove off and their night or well day of fun had officially ended. Smiling he turned around and headed inside but came to a stop as he was met by his mother who stood at the bottom of the staircase giving him a disapproving look.
"What?" he asked feeling his voice squeak some as his cheeks heated up. Even at twenty-eight he was sure he hated getting this look from his mom.
Jolene crossed her arms but kept her eyes on Zac, "Don't what me Zachary," she said her voice coming out stern. "You spent all day with that woman. You know she's married."
"She's separated," Zac corrected his mother as he felt himself blushing more at her gaze. "She's separated and there is nothing wrong with spending all day with her."
"There is when she could hurt you," Jolene reminded him knowing being separated meant nothing. "She could always go back to her husband and she could hurt you."
Zac shook his head at his mom's words, "She can't hurt me when I don't love her," he lied as he walked closer to her and kissed her cheek before walking upstairs. He needed to shower and then well he wanted to go to sleep and hopefully maybe he could dream of the girl who was slowly making him fall in love again.
"Anyway," he called out as he walked up the stairs. "I don't think she'll be going back to her husband," he said trying to sound confident. "I think she likes me too much," he nodded and he hoped he was right. He hoped she did like him enough to not go back to her husband even if that made him a bad person for wanting her marriage to fail. "I really think she likes me," Zac repeated.
Jolene just watched Zac walk off and she shook her head. She was afraid Zac was going to make the same mistakes she had. She was afraid that Zac was going to fall in love with this woman and just get hurt when she went back to her husband and she couldn't help but pray that Zac didn't leave this woman a parting gift in the form of a baby. She could only hope that if Zac was having sex with this woman that he was using protection or that he would when they did have sex.
If this woman got pregnant by Zac, Jolene knew her situation would be a lot different than Jolene's had been. That Hanson boy whichever one it was that was her husband could claim the baby and then her son not only would be hurt by losing this woman but he'd be hurt that he couldn't have his baby and Jolene just didn't want that. She didn't want her son getting hurt.
Avery smiled to herself as she laid in the back of Zac's truck. They had left the diner hours ago and had just road around until it got dark. Then Zac had taken them to some lake not far from the edge of town. It was nice and quite out here and he said since he didn't have to teach a class until Tuesday that they could stay out as late as she had wanted so here they were just laying in the back of his truck looking at the stars.
"You always keep a blanket in your truck?" Avery asked as she turned to look over at him curiously. "Or did you just have plans on getting laid tonight in the back of your truck?"
Zac laughed as he turned to face Avery, "I always keep a blanket in the back," he winked as he inched his face closer. "In hopes that I do get laid in my truck," he teased before putting his hand on her cheek and leaning in to kiss her. What he said was partly true. He did keep a blanket in the back of his truck but not because he had hopes of getting laid. He had just found with his ex in California that sometimes when she'd kick him out of the house randomly that he'd have to sleep in his truck. Better than getting a motel and he really never had taken the blankets out not even when he came back to Kentucky.
Avery laughed as well as she kissed him back. She knew his words were teasing but the thought of having sex in the back of a truck was appealing to her especially since she and Taylor had always talked about doing it but never having done it. Kissing him harder at thoughts of Taylor she moved closer. This wasn't the time to be thinking of her soon to be ex-husband and she felt wrong for even letting him cross her mind as she laid here kissing another man.
Pulling away from the kiss after awhile she sighed and looked back up at the stars, "Why did you come back here?" she asked curiously. "I mean I don't think I'd ever come back if I got the chance to leave."
"Because I got my heart broken," Zac sighed as he thought about his ex. "My ex found someone else and it hurt me because I was willing to give everything up for her but in the end she found someone more suitable...someone who lived like us and I guess in the end she would have been fine if I never gave everything up," he spoke without really even thinking. In this moment it just seemed like his words were coming out easy and opening up to her was something that he just felt comfortable with.
Avery listened to Zac and she scrunched up her nose, "Lived like you?" she asked confused by his word choice. "What did you guys have some kind of weird lifestyle or something?" she asked though her words were light and meant to be taken as a joke.
At Avery's question Zac swallowed realizing he had probably said too much, "No..at least it wasn't weird to me," he said knowing that when Brenda had gotten him hooked on their kind of life he had fallen into it easy and fast and he had liked it but then Brenda had talked about settling down and getting married and he had reconsidered. He had reconsidered for her but then she dumped him for someone who was in their lifestyle had even been their friend and she had told him he was just too young and she needed someone more mature. Someone closer to her thirty-six then what he'd had been.
"But it's different?" Avery asked again feeling curious now.
"In a way yes," Zac nodded as he sighed. "I just..I'll tell you when I'm ready," he said knowing he did plan telling her. He was just scared of how she'd react. He was scared she'd go running for the hills and he wasn't sure he wanted that because he was sure he was falling for her. He had never fell for someone so hard and so fast but god damn it he was sure he was falling for her and to hell with the fact that she was separated from her husband. He'd just have to hope she didn't break his heart like Brenda did.
Smiling when he said he'd tell her in his own time Avery looked at him again, "You promise?" she asked as she reached for his hand and took it in her own. She hoped Zac would open up to her mainly because in some ways she was opening up to him as well. Even if she still hadn't been entirely honest about the state of her marriage when this whole thing started.
Zac nodded again as he turned to look at her, "I promise babe," he smiled before leaning in to kiss her again this time squeezing her hand as he did so.
Kissing Zac back Avery squeezed his hand too before slowly climbing onto him as she deepened the kiss between them. She wasn't sure exactly what she felt for him but she knew this was dangerous letting him in this close especially as her marriage crumbled. She was scared of what the outcome would be in the end and a part of her didn't want him to get hurt and she also didn't want to get hurt either but someone was going to get hurt though maybe the person who was going to get hurt had already been hurt. Maybe the person to get hurt by all of this was Taylor.
Moaning as Avery deepened the kiss Zac felt her hips eventually roll down into his and he groaned as he felt his reaction to that grow apparent in his jeans. Something he was sure she could feel and he pulled away to look up at her, "M...maybe we should stop," he said as he looked up at her. He knew he had gotten her off twice now with his hand but he wasn't sure if they should go farther or if she was ready for that. He almost wanted to leave the pacing of things up to her.
Avery smiled as she looked down at Zac, "Oh but I wanna repay you for getting me off earlier," she winked before kissing him again her hands going to his jeans as she did so. Slipping them inside she smirked as she rubbed him through his boxers for a bit before finally slipping her hand inside and circling his entire length. It was farther than he had ever gone touching her since his touching had always been through the clothes.
Zac moaned again as Avery's hand wrapped around him and he closed his eyes tight as she began to pump him his hips lifting every so often with the rythm she was making. She was good at this and he was beginning to feel like putty in her hands so to speak. He knew the next time he got her off he'd finally have to touch her directly instead of through her panties.
"You like this?" Avery whispered as she pulled away from the kiss. All she could do was watch his face and the way it would contort a certain way when she'd pump his cock a certain way or when she'd slow down deliberately just to tease him.
All Zac was able to do at her question was nod his head. He knew if he tried to talk no words would come or all that came out would be curse words so instead he just opted to silently answer her question the only way he knew how.
When he nodded Avery just smirked and continued to move her hand faster wanting to bring him to release. Wanting to make him feel as good as he had made her feel twice now.
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Standing in Natalie's kitchen after dinner Taylor looked over at her as they did the dishes, "You were amazing with the boys tonight," he said knowing she had done good especially when Charlie had thrown a fit because his favorite kind of juice wasn't here and then Jonah again complained that his mommy wasn't here and this time he had to throw in that she would have known to have Charlie's favorite kind of juice because she was mommy and mommy just knew everything.
"I was afraid there for a second I wouldn't be," Natalie laughed as she looked up at Taylor. "I mean when Jonah was complaining about his mommy knowing everything I thought for sure that I had lost him and he'd never like me ever."
"But you won him over by having the Aladdin movie," Taylor smiled as he turned briefly to look into the living room where both of his sons were now seated on the couch watching the old Disney movie. A movie that had been a favorite of Jonah's thanks to the countless times he had watched it at Avery's parents house.
Natalie nodded, "I may be glad Aladdin salvaged my relationship with a boy," she joked as she turned away from him and went back to washing the dishes. "So how are you today? I mean I am guessing from earlier today wasn't a good day."
Shaking his head Taylor sighed, "I'm not sure any day will be good from here on out. At least not for awhile Nat. I'm losing the person who completes me. I'm losing my other half and it hurts to know I am losing her because she refuses to give up on some feeling another man gives her."
"I'm sorry she's so blind to see what she has," Natalie said honestly again just feeling like Avery was being selfish in her decisions. "I'm sorry that she seems to be just thinking solely of herself right now."
"So am I," Taylor spoke being honest for once. "I hate that she's doing this and it kills me that I can't change her mind but I don't think anything except me begging could keep her from destroying everything and I refuse to beg. I refuse to look like more of a fool than I already am for even thinking she'd respect the vows we made to each other."
Frowning Natalie finished up the dishes and put her hand on Taylor's back after drying her hands on a dish towel. "At least you are doing the right thing then. Getting out before she hurts you more."
Taylor swallowed a lump in his throat though as Natalie spoke, "That's the thing Nat," he frowned feeling tears go down his cheek. "Even though I am divorcing her I think she'll always still have the ability to hurt me because I'm always going to be in love with her. I can leave her but I can't cut off how I feel for her."
When Natalie saw Taylor crying she couldn't help but pull him into a hug and the moment she did she felt him break down in her arms. His crying getting louder and his body moving against her. Natalie hadn't ever seen Taylor this torn up not even when they broke up and this just broke her heart so much. This broke her heart and it made her hate the woman he called a wife. The woman he claimed to still be in love with.
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Zac stood on his front porch watching as Avery drove off and their night or well day of fun had officially ended. Smiling he turned around and headed inside but came to a stop as he was met by his mother who stood at the bottom of the staircase giving him a disapproving look.
"What?" he asked feeling his voice squeak some as his cheeks heated up. Even at twenty-eight he was sure he hated getting this look from his mom.
Jolene crossed her arms but kept her eyes on Zac, "Don't what me Zachary," she said her voice coming out stern. "You spent all day with that woman. You know she's married."
"She's separated," Zac corrected his mother as he felt himself blushing more at her gaze. "She's separated and there is nothing wrong with spending all day with her."
"There is when she could hurt you," Jolene reminded him knowing being separated meant nothing. "She could always go back to her husband and she could hurt you."
Zac shook his head at his mom's words, "She can't hurt me when I don't love her," he lied as he walked closer to her and kissed her cheek before walking upstairs. He needed to shower and then well he wanted to go to sleep and hopefully maybe he could dream of the girl who was slowly making him fall in love again.
"Anyway," he called out as he walked up the stairs. "I don't think she'll be going back to her husband," he said trying to sound confident. "I think she likes me too much," he nodded and he hoped he was right. He hoped she did like him enough to not go back to her husband even if that made him a bad person for wanting her marriage to fail. "I really think she likes me," Zac repeated.
Jolene just watched Zac walk off and she shook her head. She was afraid Zac was going to make the same mistakes she had. She was afraid that Zac was going to fall in love with this woman and just get hurt when she went back to her husband and she couldn't help but pray that Zac didn't leave this woman a parting gift in the form of a baby. She could only hope that if Zac was having sex with this woman that he was using protection or that he would when they did have sex.
If this woman got pregnant by Zac, Jolene knew her situation would be a lot different than Jolene's had been. That Hanson boy whichever one it was that was her husband could claim the baby and then her son not only would be hurt by losing this woman but he'd be hurt that he couldn't have his baby and Jolene just didn't want that. She didn't want her son getting hurt.