Tempest in a Teacup Chapter Four
He's the one who left me too many times alone
In a three bedroom prison I tried to make a home
My love slowly died but the fire inside still burned
And the arms of a stranger was the only place left to turn-Reba McEntire-Ring On Her Finger,Time On Her Hands
Later that night I frown as I finish doing the dishes. If Zac has gotten my message he hasn't come back, in fact he hasn't even called to make sure I am doing fine with my supposed morning sickness. I'm almost starting to feel as if maybe Zac doesn't care about me anymore. Maybe to him I am just a fuck toy that he thinks he can throw to the side and forget about. Maybe he really is in love with Bethany.
Drying my hands off I walk upstairs to my bedroom, changing into my pajamas before throwing my hair into a bun. It's not my best look but with the mood I am in it is all I feel like doing before bed. All I can muster the strength to do.
"Way to go Nat," I speak to myself as I leave the room to head back downstairs to check on the kids. "Your almost thirty and are single with five kids, a sixth one on the way. You sure did turn into the slut you were called in high school."
It was true in high school I had been called a slut even though I had been a virgin up until I met Taylor. I hadn't even been with anyone else for years after marrying Taylor but when I realized he wasn't going to change I knew then that I might as well start having fun on the side. That was how I wound up in bed with Muff though that had only been a one time thing. Then there was Carrick. Carrick and I had been more than one time but I was last with him when Zac and I took that trip to California. I had stopped sleeping around with anyone else but Zac after that trip, after he had confronted me about it the day after he first had sex with Bethany. I stopped for him though I have never told him that.
Shaking my head as I come out of my thoughts I open the door to the room that Ezra and River share a smile crossing my lips as I see both of them sleeping. Going to the room across the hall I find Viggo also asleep with Willa sitting up in her crib. Walking to her I pick her up, kissing the top of her head. "You need to sleep baby girl," I whisper before laying her down and turning to leave the room.
The last room to check is Penny's and she is also asleep. I guess four out of five kids asleep ain't too bad. Willa isn't fighting sleep by crying so I am good for now it seems. Walking down the hall I sit on the couch, throwing my feet on the table before putting a hand on my stomach. It's still hard for me to believe that I am pregnant with Zac's baby. Not after we had used a condom to stop from having a baby.
"I am sorry baby," I whisper before yawning and closing my eyes. I am tired but had been holding out hope that Zac would show up. I had hoped he would come home to me.
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Hearing a knock on my door I raise an eyebrow looking at the clock on the stove. I know it's late and Taylor had said he would be at the studio all night. Not to expect him home that he would just sleep at the studio tonight. Drying my hands on a dish towel I leave the kitchen going to the door which I throw open, coming face to face with Zac who looks like a train wreck.
"Zac?" I ask confusion clear in my voice. "What are you doing here at midnight?" I ask as he pushes his way inside as if I invited him. It's when he passed me that I get a whiff of the alcohol on him. He smells like a damn walking beer bottle.
"Kate hates me," he slurs out and I hear him trip on the way to the couch. Shutting the door I turn to see him splayed out on the floor. "I..I made her watch porn and she told me I was disgusting."
I can't help but want to laugh, "What kind of porn?" I ask him as I reach my hand down to help him up when I finally make it to where he is at.
"Cream pie," Zac blurts out as if he is proud of himself. "I wanted to try it on her. She said it would be the last night of sex I'd get before the wedding. She wasn't sure what cream pie was so I said I'd show her and after I did she got mad and said it was disgusting, that I was disgusting."
When Zac doesn't take my hand I decide to sit down beside where he is still laying. "Zac," I start not really sure how to have this conversation with him. "Did you really expect Kate to be interested in cream pies? I mean they aren't exactly the most appealing things in the world to have done to you. Not that I have knowledge of that other than watching a few really nasty porno's with Taylor but I could have told you they weren't Kate's cup of tea."
Zac looks at me as if I offended him with my words, "So are you saying I am disgusting too?" he asks me before sitting up slowly, his eyes locking with mine. "So disgusting that you'd deny me sex until our hypothetical wedding day in six months?"
"Leave it to you to use big words when drunk," I whisper under my breath when he uses the word hypothetical. I didn't even know he knew what that word meant. "But no I wouldn't deny you sex until June," I laugh before shaking my head. "And that isn't why Kate is denying you sex. She is doing it because she wants to play her virgin card really well even though she isn't one."
That comment just makes Zac snarl in reply, "She is disgusted with me. You know sometimes she tells me I'm not good enough," he slips before looking away from me. "She tells me no one would want to have sex with me because I suck."
I'm not shocked by Zac's confession though at the same time I am. While Kate has criticized past lovers before she has always spoken well of Zac to me. Though maybe she tells Zac those things because she wants him to stay forever tied to her.
"I'm sure she'll stop being such a bitch when you marry her," I nod as I start to stand up but before I can get off the ground I feel Zac's hand grab my wrist hard, pulling me towards him. Looking at him I swallow hard at the look in his eyes. It's a look I know well. One I haven't seen from my husband in ages. Not since he started his affair with their new secretary at 3CG. Zachary Walker Hanson is looking at me with lust, a lust I am afraid will only be cured with sex.
Zac doesn't say anything to me. I'm not sure I expected him too so when he kisses me I am ready for it. I am ready to pull away but I don't. Instead I find myself kissing him back. Find myself pushing him down on the floor again, this time laying over him. This is the first time I have actually cheated on Taylor before and I am silently praying that God doesn't kill me for it but he knows better than anyone how much I have tried. I have tried so hard to be the perfect wife when Taylor keeps letting me down and now it seems like I just have a ring on my finger and time on my hands. Time I am going to use with the touch and warmth of Zac tonight.
Kissing Zac harder I slid my hand under his shirt, feeling him shiver against my touch. I like making him shiver. I like knowing that I can make him respond to me. Pulling away I slowly lift his shirt off of him running my hands down his chest after it's gone. He isn't as skinny as Taylor but god he is still so fucking sexy.
"Sexy," I whisper out before leaning my head down and kissing his chest softly, feeling Zac inhale slowly holding his breath for the longest time, finally releasing it when my lips are half way down his chest. Getting to that point I pay special attention to his belly button, kissing and licking it several times before letting my lips leave soft kisses down his happy trail. It's the happiest happy trail I have seen though really I only have Taylor's for comparison of up close and personal opinion.
Reaching his jeans I finally pull away again, quickly undoing them and sliding them off along with his boxers, taking in his nude form belown me. It's then I can see a faint blush on his cheeks. He looks less like the twenty year old man that he is and more like the little boy he was when I first met his brother, though I guess back then he wasn't even that little was he?
"I think you need to be naked too," Zac finally speaks up his voice coming out soft. Before I know what's happening I feel him move below me into a half sitting position as his hands find the hem of the silk nightgown I had put on hours ago. The moment he finds it he removes it, leaving me in just the pair of red silk panties that matched the nightgown he had taken off.
Instead of saying anything he locks eyes with me briefly before his mouth connects with my breast. I can't help but moan at that action or the way he sucks on the nipple as if he is hungry for it. God this boy was made for sucking on things that was for sure. He was so skilled with his mouth, much better than his brother ever had been.
Feeling my head fall back when he finally started to suck on the other breast, I moan again hoping I could stay silent enough that I didn't wake up Penny and Ezra. That was the last thing I had wanted was for my three year old son and my eight month old daughter to wake up and ruin the sex. Not when it had been so long since I had any sex. The last time Taylor had wanted me was three months ago. A mere few days before the new secretary was hired.
"Fuck...Zac," I whimper as I let my hips move into his own. I can feel his hard dick against my panties. "I need you," I manage to get out before reaching down to find his hand. Placing his hand on my panties I am giving him permission to take them off. I am giving him permission to fuck me here on my living room floor with my kids asleep down the hall. Now all I can hope is that Taylor keeps his word about being at the studio all night.
Instead of taking my panties off I feel him push them to the side before he guides himself into me. It's a quick motion and it surprises me but I don't complain. No instead I find his lips and kiss him as I start to move on him. I know it's risky to have sex with him without a condom but I think I have taken my birth control today...I think. Even if not I am still going to continue this. There ain't no use in stopping now.
Groaning out when Zac's nails dig into the flesh above where the waistband of my panties is, I pick up my speed, kissing him harder. The only thing feeling the room is the sound of our flesh and the occasional moan. I'm not even sure why Kate thinks he sucks. Yeah he sure isn't as experienced as Taylor is but god does he know what places to hit each time he moves with me. He knows just the right places.
"Nat," Zac whispers out into my mouth as his nails go deeper into my skin. "I...fuck," he mutters again his tongue finding it's way into my mouth. It's not long after that action that I feel him shaking beneath me and then a hot, sticky, substance fills me up.
Smirking into the kiss I know I can't last much longer either so I pick up my pace even more until I finally feel my orgasm hit, moaning out his name over and over until I can't speak anymore. Until he has made me speechless.
I wait until I can breathe before moving off Zac and sitting down in the floor beside him again. Neither of us say anything though. Instead Zac finally stands up though he still isn't sturdy so I stand up as well, my hands going out to keep him in place. He looks at me again this time through clouded eyes before reaching down to get his clothes and get dressed.
"C..can I sleep in the guest room?" he asks finally breaking the silence and tension that had built around us. "I'm too drunk to even consider driving back home."
I nod not sure if I can form words right now. At my nod Zac walks off, leaving me standing alone. After he is gone I fall back onto the floor not sure how to feel. I have finally done something I have always started arguments with Taylor over. I have cheated on my husband with his own brother. A brother who I am sure is too drunk to even remember tonight.
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Waking up on the couch in a sweat I take in my surroundings, feeling nausea's. I know I was asleep but that was no dream I had. I had remembered a night that has haunted me for years. I have remembered the night that River was conceived.
"Fuck," I mutter before standing from the bed and running down the hall to the bathroom. Bending down in front of the toilet I lose last night's dinner and maybe all of today's meals. I'm not sure though if this is karma paying me back for my morning sickness lie or if this is me getting sick from remembering the secret that I have kept now for seven years. A secret that only Taylor knows.
He's the one who left me too many times alone
In a three bedroom prison I tried to make a home
My love slowly died but the fire inside still burned
And the arms of a stranger was the only place left to turn-Reba McEntire-Ring On Her Finger,Time On Her Hands
Later that night I frown as I finish doing the dishes. If Zac has gotten my message he hasn't come back, in fact he hasn't even called to make sure I am doing fine with my supposed morning sickness. I'm almost starting to feel as if maybe Zac doesn't care about me anymore. Maybe to him I am just a fuck toy that he thinks he can throw to the side and forget about. Maybe he really is in love with Bethany.
Drying my hands off I walk upstairs to my bedroom, changing into my pajamas before throwing my hair into a bun. It's not my best look but with the mood I am in it is all I feel like doing before bed. All I can muster the strength to do.
"Way to go Nat," I speak to myself as I leave the room to head back downstairs to check on the kids. "Your almost thirty and are single with five kids, a sixth one on the way. You sure did turn into the slut you were called in high school."
It was true in high school I had been called a slut even though I had been a virgin up until I met Taylor. I hadn't even been with anyone else for years after marrying Taylor but when I realized he wasn't going to change I knew then that I might as well start having fun on the side. That was how I wound up in bed with Muff though that had only been a one time thing. Then there was Carrick. Carrick and I had been more than one time but I was last with him when Zac and I took that trip to California. I had stopped sleeping around with anyone else but Zac after that trip, after he had confronted me about it the day after he first had sex with Bethany. I stopped for him though I have never told him that.
Shaking my head as I come out of my thoughts I open the door to the room that Ezra and River share a smile crossing my lips as I see both of them sleeping. Going to the room across the hall I find Viggo also asleep with Willa sitting up in her crib. Walking to her I pick her up, kissing the top of her head. "You need to sleep baby girl," I whisper before laying her down and turning to leave the room.
The last room to check is Penny's and she is also asleep. I guess four out of five kids asleep ain't too bad. Willa isn't fighting sleep by crying so I am good for now it seems. Walking down the hall I sit on the couch, throwing my feet on the table before putting a hand on my stomach. It's still hard for me to believe that I am pregnant with Zac's baby. Not after we had used a condom to stop from having a baby.
"I am sorry baby," I whisper before yawning and closing my eyes. I am tired but had been holding out hope that Zac would show up. I had hoped he would come home to me.
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Hearing a knock on my door I raise an eyebrow looking at the clock on the stove. I know it's late and Taylor had said he would be at the studio all night. Not to expect him home that he would just sleep at the studio tonight. Drying my hands on a dish towel I leave the kitchen going to the door which I throw open, coming face to face with Zac who looks like a train wreck.
"Zac?" I ask confusion clear in my voice. "What are you doing here at midnight?" I ask as he pushes his way inside as if I invited him. It's when he passed me that I get a whiff of the alcohol on him. He smells like a damn walking beer bottle.
"Kate hates me," he slurs out and I hear him trip on the way to the couch. Shutting the door I turn to see him splayed out on the floor. "I..I made her watch porn and she told me I was disgusting."
I can't help but want to laugh, "What kind of porn?" I ask him as I reach my hand down to help him up when I finally make it to where he is at.
"Cream pie," Zac blurts out as if he is proud of himself. "I wanted to try it on her. She said it would be the last night of sex I'd get before the wedding. She wasn't sure what cream pie was so I said I'd show her and after I did she got mad and said it was disgusting, that I was disgusting."
When Zac doesn't take my hand I decide to sit down beside where he is still laying. "Zac," I start not really sure how to have this conversation with him. "Did you really expect Kate to be interested in cream pies? I mean they aren't exactly the most appealing things in the world to have done to you. Not that I have knowledge of that other than watching a few really nasty porno's with Taylor but I could have told you they weren't Kate's cup of tea."
Zac looks at me as if I offended him with my words, "So are you saying I am disgusting too?" he asks me before sitting up slowly, his eyes locking with mine. "So disgusting that you'd deny me sex until our hypothetical wedding day in six months?"
"Leave it to you to use big words when drunk," I whisper under my breath when he uses the word hypothetical. I didn't even know he knew what that word meant. "But no I wouldn't deny you sex until June," I laugh before shaking my head. "And that isn't why Kate is denying you sex. She is doing it because she wants to play her virgin card really well even though she isn't one."
That comment just makes Zac snarl in reply, "She is disgusted with me. You know sometimes she tells me I'm not good enough," he slips before looking away from me. "She tells me no one would want to have sex with me because I suck."
I'm not shocked by Zac's confession though at the same time I am. While Kate has criticized past lovers before she has always spoken well of Zac to me. Though maybe she tells Zac those things because she wants him to stay forever tied to her.
"I'm sure she'll stop being such a bitch when you marry her," I nod as I start to stand up but before I can get off the ground I feel Zac's hand grab my wrist hard, pulling me towards him. Looking at him I swallow hard at the look in his eyes. It's a look I know well. One I haven't seen from my husband in ages. Not since he started his affair with their new secretary at 3CG. Zachary Walker Hanson is looking at me with lust, a lust I am afraid will only be cured with sex.
Zac doesn't say anything to me. I'm not sure I expected him too so when he kisses me I am ready for it. I am ready to pull away but I don't. Instead I find myself kissing him back. Find myself pushing him down on the floor again, this time laying over him. This is the first time I have actually cheated on Taylor before and I am silently praying that God doesn't kill me for it but he knows better than anyone how much I have tried. I have tried so hard to be the perfect wife when Taylor keeps letting me down and now it seems like I just have a ring on my finger and time on my hands. Time I am going to use with the touch and warmth of Zac tonight.
Kissing Zac harder I slid my hand under his shirt, feeling him shiver against my touch. I like making him shiver. I like knowing that I can make him respond to me. Pulling away I slowly lift his shirt off of him running my hands down his chest after it's gone. He isn't as skinny as Taylor but god he is still so fucking sexy.
"Sexy," I whisper out before leaning my head down and kissing his chest softly, feeling Zac inhale slowly holding his breath for the longest time, finally releasing it when my lips are half way down his chest. Getting to that point I pay special attention to his belly button, kissing and licking it several times before letting my lips leave soft kisses down his happy trail. It's the happiest happy trail I have seen though really I only have Taylor's for comparison of up close and personal opinion.
Reaching his jeans I finally pull away again, quickly undoing them and sliding them off along with his boxers, taking in his nude form belown me. It's then I can see a faint blush on his cheeks. He looks less like the twenty year old man that he is and more like the little boy he was when I first met his brother, though I guess back then he wasn't even that little was he?
"I think you need to be naked too," Zac finally speaks up his voice coming out soft. Before I know what's happening I feel him move below me into a half sitting position as his hands find the hem of the silk nightgown I had put on hours ago. The moment he finds it he removes it, leaving me in just the pair of red silk panties that matched the nightgown he had taken off.
Instead of saying anything he locks eyes with me briefly before his mouth connects with my breast. I can't help but moan at that action or the way he sucks on the nipple as if he is hungry for it. God this boy was made for sucking on things that was for sure. He was so skilled with his mouth, much better than his brother ever had been.
Feeling my head fall back when he finally started to suck on the other breast, I moan again hoping I could stay silent enough that I didn't wake up Penny and Ezra. That was the last thing I had wanted was for my three year old son and my eight month old daughter to wake up and ruin the sex. Not when it had been so long since I had any sex. The last time Taylor had wanted me was three months ago. A mere few days before the new secretary was hired.
"Fuck...Zac," I whimper as I let my hips move into his own. I can feel his hard dick against my panties. "I need you," I manage to get out before reaching down to find his hand. Placing his hand on my panties I am giving him permission to take them off. I am giving him permission to fuck me here on my living room floor with my kids asleep down the hall. Now all I can hope is that Taylor keeps his word about being at the studio all night.
Instead of taking my panties off I feel him push them to the side before he guides himself into me. It's a quick motion and it surprises me but I don't complain. No instead I find his lips and kiss him as I start to move on him. I know it's risky to have sex with him without a condom but I think I have taken my birth control today...I think. Even if not I am still going to continue this. There ain't no use in stopping now.
Groaning out when Zac's nails dig into the flesh above where the waistband of my panties is, I pick up my speed, kissing him harder. The only thing feeling the room is the sound of our flesh and the occasional moan. I'm not even sure why Kate thinks he sucks. Yeah he sure isn't as experienced as Taylor is but god does he know what places to hit each time he moves with me. He knows just the right places.
"Nat," Zac whispers out into my mouth as his nails go deeper into my skin. "I...fuck," he mutters again his tongue finding it's way into my mouth. It's not long after that action that I feel him shaking beneath me and then a hot, sticky, substance fills me up.
Smirking into the kiss I know I can't last much longer either so I pick up my pace even more until I finally feel my orgasm hit, moaning out his name over and over until I can't speak anymore. Until he has made me speechless.
I wait until I can breathe before moving off Zac and sitting down in the floor beside him again. Neither of us say anything though. Instead Zac finally stands up though he still isn't sturdy so I stand up as well, my hands going out to keep him in place. He looks at me again this time through clouded eyes before reaching down to get his clothes and get dressed.
"C..can I sleep in the guest room?" he asks finally breaking the silence and tension that had built around us. "I'm too drunk to even consider driving back home."
I nod not sure if I can form words right now. At my nod Zac walks off, leaving me standing alone. After he is gone I fall back onto the floor not sure how to feel. I have finally done something I have always started arguments with Taylor over. I have cheated on my husband with his own brother. A brother who I am sure is too drunk to even remember tonight.
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Waking up on the couch in a sweat I take in my surroundings, feeling nausea's. I know I was asleep but that was no dream I had. I had remembered a night that has haunted me for years. I have remembered the night that River was conceived.
"Fuck," I mutter before standing from the bed and running down the hall to the bathroom. Bending down in front of the toilet I lose last night's dinner and maybe all of today's meals. I'm not sure though if this is karma paying me back for my morning sickness lie or if this is me getting sick from remembering the secret that I have kept now for seven years. A secret that only Taylor knows.