The Past Is Just A Goodbye Chapter Five
A week later Taylor chewed on his bottom lip as he sat in the tiny apartment. It was just him and Cecily tonight. Zac was out with some of the friends he had made her in Oklahoma City. He had asked Taylor if he wanted to come and Taylor knew he had only asked in hopes of cheering him up. Taylor liked the effort Zac was giving but he just didn't feel like going out, not tonight anyway.
Turning on the TV he smiled when Cecily climbed up onto the couch beside him. "What are you doing princess?" he asked as he pulled her closer to him.
"Watching TV with you," Cecily grinned as she looked up at her daddy. "Can we watch sponge bob?" she asked innocently before giggling. She was always allowed to watch whatever she wanted.
"Of course you can," Taylor laughed as he gave into what Cecily wanted. Standing from the couch he went over to where they kept the videos that were just Cecily's. Grabbing the sponge bob dvd that had been a birthday present from Zac to her a few months back he opened the box. Taking the DVD he walked over to the dvd player and put the disc inside.
Going back to the couch he sat beside Cecily again and grabbed the remote hitting play. Once he had hit play he shook his head as Cecily grinned more and watched intently. He was raising a sponge bob fanatic. He wasn't sure whether he should have felt happy or sad over that.
Hearing a knock on the door Taylor made a face and stood up, knowing he hadn't been expecting company. For once he was thankful that Cecily wasn't racing him to the door to see who it was. She was too engrossed in her DVD. Opening the door he felt his face change from one to confusion to one of anger as he came face to face with Alex Greenwald.
"Alex," he muttered as he felt his voice showing some of the anger he felt. Alex was his ex. An ex who had almost gotten him hooked on drugs. An ex who he had dumped once he knew Natalie was pregnant. "How did you find me?" he asked as he stood in the door way, not wanting Alex to come inside.
Alex smirked as he looked Taylor over, "A mutual friend," he shrugged as he pushed his way past Taylor and inside of the apartment. He hadn't seen Taylor in years and he had missed him. "I heard about your divorce," he said looking at the girl on the couch, "And the fact that you are now fucking your brother," he said nonchalantly. To be honest he found it kind of sick but who was he to judge anyone?
Taylor rolled his eyes when Alex pushed past him, "Did I say you could come in?" he asked as he shut the door.
"No," Alex said as he locked eyes with Taylor. "But I didn't think you'd care," he said as he walked closer to where Taylor still stood at the door. "I brought some good stuff," he muttered as he reached into his pockets and pulled out a bag of what looked like powder. It was cocaine.
Feeling his eyes grow big at what Alex held in his hand, Taylor swallowed hard. He hadn't used drugs since he married Natalie. He had voluntarily went into rehab and gotten clean. Now seeing the stuff again especially in the funk he had been in lately he was half tempted by it.
Looking at Cecily though he knew he couldn't. Not with her here.
"I can't Alex," Taylor said shaking his head as chewed on his lip. "I'm not going to snort that shit with my daughter here," he said trying to hide the fact that everything in him was screaming for him to use it.
Pouting playfully, Alex slunk his arm around Taylor's shoulder, "Oh come one buddy," he said as he lowered his voice to a whisper. "Just once isn't going to hurt you."
Closing his eyes at Alex's arm around him, Taylor heaved a sigh when Alex whispered that just one time wasn't going to hurt him. Opening his eyes he looked at Cecily again. She was still engrossed in Sponge bob. His mind was screaming no to doing the cocaine but his heart was saying yes, "Fine," he breathed giving into what his heart wanted. He knew he was making a huge mistake but he didn't care.
Alex smiled some when Taylor agreed to use the cocaine. Spotting the kitchen he walked in there with Taylor and when he reached the table he dropped his arm from Taylor's shoulders and sat down. Opening the baggies contents he poured the cocaine onto the table and then got out something else from his pockets. Smirking her soon divided the cocaine into perfect white lines. He was glad Taylor had agreed to do this with him. He always hated doing cocaine alone.
Taylor felt his heart beat faster as he stood in the kitchen with Alex. Watching as he fixed up the drug that Taylor would soon be using. He was scared that Cecily would catch him but even his fears weren't enough to stop him. No, nothing could stop him from wanting this high. He needed this high because he knew at least for awhile it would make him feel better.
Watching as Alex got out a dollar bill and rolled it up, soon snorting up some of white powdery stuff Taylor felt a longing in his veins that he hadn't felt in ages. Sitting down in a chair he moved it beside Alex and when he was handed the rolled up dollar bill he eagerly snorted up some of the drugs himself. His fear had only increased as he did that. If he got caught by his daughter he would feel like scum.
"Good boy," Alex smiled as he patted Taylor on the back and soon he took the dollar bill back snorting up some more of the drug that he was sure was keeping him alive.
Smirking some when Alex patted him on the back Taylor watched him and soon their little game of pass the rolled up dollar back and forth continued, it continued until Taylor heard a voice he knew neither belonged to him nor Alex. Hell it didn't even belong to Cecily.
Swallowing hard he looked up, his blue eyes looking up and coming into contact with a pair of brown ones and boy were those brown eyes pissed.
"Z..Zac," Taylor squeaked out feeling like a little child who had just been caught with their hand in the proverbial cookie jar.
Zac who had gotten home early from being out with friends stood in the entry way of his kitchen, his hands on his hips and his temper hot. He had just seen Taylor snorting up what was left of some damn drug which had caused him to exclaim loudly what the hell. Three words that had made Taylor look up at him.
When Taylor said his name Zac heard the squeak and he could also read the scared expression on his brother's face, "Taylor," he muttered back through clinched teeth. As he stood there his eyes went to Alex who was beside Taylor. Of course Alex was here.
Sitting beside Taylor in the middle of this mess, Alex soon stood up, "I should go," he muttered as he pushed past Zac not wanting to be around for the fall out.
Taylor watched Alex leave and he just sat in the chair, wishing that he hadn't been left alone with Zac. He was afraid Zac would hurt him somehow or something. Terrified of it.
"Are you a dumb?" Zac asked as he shook his head and left the kitchen. Going to Cecily who was on the couch he picked her up. He wanted to get her and himself away from Taylor. She didn't deserve to see her daddy like that.
When Zac left the kitchen, Taylor stood from the chair finally and walked after him, "I'm not dumb," he answered though he was sure he looked dumb. He had been caught snorting cocaine while his daughter was just in the next room.
Zac laughed some sarcastically as he shook his head, "Oh, really well then pray tell, would you call yourself smart then? I mean for doing what you did with Cess in here on the couch?" he asked as he looked at the girl in his arms. She was confused he could tell from her face but he was glad she was silent. He didn't want her asking questions.
"It wasn't one of my finer moments," Taylor confessed as he shrugged and looked down. "I just needed something to stop feeling so sad over things," he sighed as he looked up and ran a hand through his hair.
"Yeah and your something was one of the dumbest choices you could make," Zac snapped as he walked towards the door.
Watching Zac go towards the door Taylor walked after him again, "Where are you going?" he asked as he raised an eyebrow. He didn't want Zac leaving him.
Zac sighed as he turned briefly to look at Taylor when he reached the door, "I am taking Cecily and I am going away," he said as he opened the door.
"You can't take my daughter away from me," Taylor said his voice raising as he walked over to Zac in almost a jog. He didn't want him to take Cecily anywhere. He was mad yes, but why leave with her? Did Zac think that he was a bad parent now?
"Oh really?" Zac asked sarcastically as he moved away from Taylor and out the door. "I'm the one who signed her birth certificate. I'm the one who is legally her father, so yes, I can leave with her," he nodded as he walked down the hallway and towards the elevators. This was one of the hardest things he was doing. Leaving Taylor for awhile.
Watching Zac leave, Taylor shut the door and fell down it and onto the floor. Feeling tears sting his eyes he soon held his head in his hands as he cried. He felt like he had just lost the only two people who made life worth living. He had lost them by screwing up just one time.
A week later Taylor chewed on his bottom lip as he sat in the tiny apartment. It was just him and Cecily tonight. Zac was out with some of the friends he had made her in Oklahoma City. He had asked Taylor if he wanted to come and Taylor knew he had only asked in hopes of cheering him up. Taylor liked the effort Zac was giving but he just didn't feel like going out, not tonight anyway.
Turning on the TV he smiled when Cecily climbed up onto the couch beside him. "What are you doing princess?" he asked as he pulled her closer to him.
"Watching TV with you," Cecily grinned as she looked up at her daddy. "Can we watch sponge bob?" she asked innocently before giggling. She was always allowed to watch whatever she wanted.
"Of course you can," Taylor laughed as he gave into what Cecily wanted. Standing from the couch he went over to where they kept the videos that were just Cecily's. Grabbing the sponge bob dvd that had been a birthday present from Zac to her a few months back he opened the box. Taking the DVD he walked over to the dvd player and put the disc inside.
Going back to the couch he sat beside Cecily again and grabbed the remote hitting play. Once he had hit play he shook his head as Cecily grinned more and watched intently. He was raising a sponge bob fanatic. He wasn't sure whether he should have felt happy or sad over that.
Hearing a knock on the door Taylor made a face and stood up, knowing he hadn't been expecting company. For once he was thankful that Cecily wasn't racing him to the door to see who it was. She was too engrossed in her DVD. Opening the door he felt his face change from one to confusion to one of anger as he came face to face with Alex Greenwald.
"Alex," he muttered as he felt his voice showing some of the anger he felt. Alex was his ex. An ex who had almost gotten him hooked on drugs. An ex who he had dumped once he knew Natalie was pregnant. "How did you find me?" he asked as he stood in the door way, not wanting Alex to come inside.
Alex smirked as he looked Taylor over, "A mutual friend," he shrugged as he pushed his way past Taylor and inside of the apartment. He hadn't seen Taylor in years and he had missed him. "I heard about your divorce," he said looking at the girl on the couch, "And the fact that you are now fucking your brother," he said nonchalantly. To be honest he found it kind of sick but who was he to judge anyone?
Taylor rolled his eyes when Alex pushed past him, "Did I say you could come in?" he asked as he shut the door.
"No," Alex said as he locked eyes with Taylor. "But I didn't think you'd care," he said as he walked closer to where Taylor still stood at the door. "I brought some good stuff," he muttered as he reached into his pockets and pulled out a bag of what looked like powder. It was cocaine.
Feeling his eyes grow big at what Alex held in his hand, Taylor swallowed hard. He hadn't used drugs since he married Natalie. He had voluntarily went into rehab and gotten clean. Now seeing the stuff again especially in the funk he had been in lately he was half tempted by it.
Looking at Cecily though he knew he couldn't. Not with her here.
"I can't Alex," Taylor said shaking his head as chewed on his lip. "I'm not going to snort that shit with my daughter here," he said trying to hide the fact that everything in him was screaming for him to use it.
Pouting playfully, Alex slunk his arm around Taylor's shoulder, "Oh come one buddy," he said as he lowered his voice to a whisper. "Just once isn't going to hurt you."
Closing his eyes at Alex's arm around him, Taylor heaved a sigh when Alex whispered that just one time wasn't going to hurt him. Opening his eyes he looked at Cecily again. She was still engrossed in Sponge bob. His mind was screaming no to doing the cocaine but his heart was saying yes, "Fine," he breathed giving into what his heart wanted. He knew he was making a huge mistake but he didn't care.
Alex smiled some when Taylor agreed to use the cocaine. Spotting the kitchen he walked in there with Taylor and when he reached the table he dropped his arm from Taylor's shoulders and sat down. Opening the baggies contents he poured the cocaine onto the table and then got out something else from his pockets. Smirking her soon divided the cocaine into perfect white lines. He was glad Taylor had agreed to do this with him. He always hated doing cocaine alone.
Taylor felt his heart beat faster as he stood in the kitchen with Alex. Watching as he fixed up the drug that Taylor would soon be using. He was scared that Cecily would catch him but even his fears weren't enough to stop him. No, nothing could stop him from wanting this high. He needed this high because he knew at least for awhile it would make him feel better.
Watching as Alex got out a dollar bill and rolled it up, soon snorting up some of white powdery stuff Taylor felt a longing in his veins that he hadn't felt in ages. Sitting down in a chair he moved it beside Alex and when he was handed the rolled up dollar bill he eagerly snorted up some of the drugs himself. His fear had only increased as he did that. If he got caught by his daughter he would feel like scum.
"Good boy," Alex smiled as he patted Taylor on the back and soon he took the dollar bill back snorting up some more of the drug that he was sure was keeping him alive.
Smirking some when Alex patted him on the back Taylor watched him and soon their little game of pass the rolled up dollar back and forth continued, it continued until Taylor heard a voice he knew neither belonged to him nor Alex. Hell it didn't even belong to Cecily.
Swallowing hard he looked up, his blue eyes looking up and coming into contact with a pair of brown ones and boy were those brown eyes pissed.
"Z..Zac," Taylor squeaked out feeling like a little child who had just been caught with their hand in the proverbial cookie jar.
Zac who had gotten home early from being out with friends stood in the entry way of his kitchen, his hands on his hips and his temper hot. He had just seen Taylor snorting up what was left of some damn drug which had caused him to exclaim loudly what the hell. Three words that had made Taylor look up at him.
When Taylor said his name Zac heard the squeak and he could also read the scared expression on his brother's face, "Taylor," he muttered back through clinched teeth. As he stood there his eyes went to Alex who was beside Taylor. Of course Alex was here.
Sitting beside Taylor in the middle of this mess, Alex soon stood up, "I should go," he muttered as he pushed past Zac not wanting to be around for the fall out.
Taylor watched Alex leave and he just sat in the chair, wishing that he hadn't been left alone with Zac. He was afraid Zac would hurt him somehow or something. Terrified of it.
"Are you a dumb?" Zac asked as he shook his head and left the kitchen. Going to Cecily who was on the couch he picked her up. He wanted to get her and himself away from Taylor. She didn't deserve to see her daddy like that.
When Zac left the kitchen, Taylor stood from the chair finally and walked after him, "I'm not dumb," he answered though he was sure he looked dumb. He had been caught snorting cocaine while his daughter was just in the next room.
Zac laughed some sarcastically as he shook his head, "Oh, really well then pray tell, would you call yourself smart then? I mean for doing what you did with Cess in here on the couch?" he asked as he looked at the girl in his arms. She was confused he could tell from her face but he was glad she was silent. He didn't want her asking questions.
"It wasn't one of my finer moments," Taylor confessed as he shrugged and looked down. "I just needed something to stop feeling so sad over things," he sighed as he looked up and ran a hand through his hair.
"Yeah and your something was one of the dumbest choices you could make," Zac snapped as he walked towards the door.
Watching Zac go towards the door Taylor walked after him again, "Where are you going?" he asked as he raised an eyebrow. He didn't want Zac leaving him.
Zac sighed as he turned briefly to look at Taylor when he reached the door, "I am taking Cecily and I am going away," he said as he opened the door.
"You can't take my daughter away from me," Taylor said his voice raising as he walked over to Zac in almost a jog. He didn't want him to take Cecily anywhere. He was mad yes, but why leave with her? Did Zac think that he was a bad parent now?
"Oh really?" Zac asked sarcastically as he moved away from Taylor and out the door. "I'm the one who signed her birth certificate. I'm the one who is legally her father, so yes, I can leave with her," he nodded as he walked down the hallway and towards the elevators. This was one of the hardest things he was doing. Leaving Taylor for awhile.
Watching Zac leave, Taylor shut the door and fell down it and onto the floor. Feeling tears sting his eyes he soon held his head in his hands as he cried. He felt like he had just lost the only two people who made life worth living. He had lost them by screwing up just one time.
